graveyard memories

2011-01-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

He's an asshole (:

I really really really hate school right now .

2010-12-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

I think unknowingly, I closed down this blog xD

2010-10-22T01:27:00.001+08:00

Maybe right now, I don't want you to interfere.
So please, try to understand.

2010-10-15T15:35:00.002+08:00

Exactly .

It was too much for me to handle, & so I let it out .
Whatever happened, tells me something about you.

Bottomline ; understanding the situation someone is going through, & NOT wanting to make a difference just shows how selfish people can get.

I won't do the same, because I'm not like you . I'm not selfish .

Leave me alone, I'd rather be a loner in the group rather than being taken for granted .

2010-10-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah everything's settled (:

my 5 weeks of holiday's a crap ! I spent most of my time slacking and not doing anything meaningful . BUT there ARE activities that me and my friends did ; bake cookies , met up at Starbucks , overnights , sleepover , catch ups w old friends and coming soon lunch w NR0912 .

Won't be buying any books until my next pay . Aku dah pokai :[

& to you , know what's going on before you start being judgemental . I have reasons for blogging about it, because you and your friend are being unreasonable. Thank you =.=

2010-09-17T15:06:00.005+08:00

Exams? Waaay over since eve of Raya . Alhamdulillah, it's O-V-E-R ! I was one of the happiest student when we were allowed to leave the exam hall . I went home, slept for about an hour and then went out . Back home , waited for Khairul and we break fast at his house. After cleaning the house, we went to Geylang till near 3 in the morning . Kakak was on morning shift the next day so we couldn't stay longer .

First day of RAYA !
Mom had trouble waking me up :| Okay fast forward , salam-salam and all & then headed to Bedok . Near 3pm , took bus back to Woodlands, and then bus-ed to Bukit Panjang . Wow, far eh ? Waited for the rest to arrive, makan-makan , and cabbed to Nek Long's house. Lucky Abg Dan rented a car -.- , if not ... Amali tinggal sudaaaaaah xD . Last house was Abg Dan's . DONE !

2nd day of RAYA !
Went to Telok Blangah, and then Pioneer . Next was Boon Lay, and lastly Ibu's house @ Marsiling . I spent the whole day makan makan makan seh . I dozed off at Ibu's place since I was super super tired. * Padehal I spent two days eating aje *

3rd day of RAYA !
Headed to Along's house at CCK, and then to Cik Ahmad's house at Bukit Batok/Gombak . Lepas tuuuuuu, Mak Long's house at Pasir Panjang. & again , lucky Abg Dan was driving (: From Mak Long's house, back to nenek's house at BP before we all head home. It's been a while since my family managed to go out rayaraya and meet almost all of our relatives.

I spent my weekdays slacking . On Monday, accompanied Ibu to Mt. Alvernia Hospital in the morning , and then at home in the evening . Out the whole day with Pot on Tuesday, and we watched Grown Ups . Rot at home on Wednesday , in bed most of the time . Out with Khairul on Thursday and we watched Resident Evil . COOL ! Best if you watched in 3D . Thumbs up ! Today ? I'm rotting in front of my laptop .

Dad's side of the family are coming tomorrowwwwww ! Can't wait (:

2010-08-09T15:52:00.002+08:00

romantic much? HAHAH (:

Out with Kak Ana, Abg Alif & Khai last week, Tuesday. Watched Inception & we had dinner at Swensens. Thanks Kak and Abg for the treat! I know both me and Khai were very childish on that day, peace.

Geylang last Saturday w his family. I loved this outfit but when I called mom, she said it was too expensive. Ate at Arnold's, done. Vivocity on Sunday with them again. Was searching for a pair of black crocs, but none found. Papa bought me a pair of heels, thank you:/ Monday evening, again out with them. Headed to Marina Square, in search of crocs also but no stock. Ape seh ! Irritating giler, yeah . Early dinner at BK, and then joined their relatives for fireworks. Baby Ryan was scared, should have seen his face xD

Drove down to Adam's Corner to cut the birthday boys' cake. Twins, cute. Sent Khai to the airport, and then mama & papa sent me home before meeting kakak. Tuesday till now, ATTACHMENT. Still trying to adapt to the routines, susah giler =.= Tried to study, also cannot since body super tired ...

No more updates till end of attachment, till end of examinations.

2010-07-29T06:24:00.002+08:00

See the tummy there? Hehe.

Khai break-fast-ed with me last Monday & Tuesday. Sweet enough to drop by my house and eat (: He cooked for me on Tuesday, since both of us already jelak with outside food. Mom said it was nice, lol . Thank you Khairul ! aaaaaaaaand, finally presentations are over but I screwed up on the last one. Sorry people, I got tired of those ICA(s).

Yesterday was fun . I was late for school, 2nd time. =.= Breakfast at north canteen, and then headed up for class. Did some final practice for BCLS before we all went down to K Garden for the celebration. After years, we finally sang the National Anthem & pledge! Macam cool gitu :D The food looked nice, but too bad I saved my tummy for the later part of the day.

Met Khairul, and we bought tickets to Hot Tub. The show was thumbs up, & boyfr kept laughing and laughing. Noisy! Walked to Pizza Hut for dinner and I swear my tummy was growing bigger. Took the MRT back home, and done! I had fun today, lots of it. If those fun and happy moments happens everyday, I'd be the luckiest girl in the whole world :)

Thank you people,

2010-07-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

POT & JOT, QOT MISSES YOU MABOKS ALOT !

& once again, I'm caught up with school that I don't give this blog any attention. Had my skills assessment 2 weeks ago and surprisingly I passed . Lecturer was VERY lenient since she passed me although I smashed the ampoule till I cut myself. Bersyukur aku pass ...

Mental Health presentation was last week, & I shall not comment. Right after presentation was BIO test, and Alhamdulillah I passed. Lectures are still going on and damn it , first paper for this semester is on the 31st of august. 3 days only to study after attachment ends. Cool eh, mcm soyal =.= ... Will start mugging this weekend (:

Few days back, the Qot Pot Jot reunite at Mac , Woodlands Mart. Jot treated us to dinner and Qot treated to dessert. The trios headed to ATAP and talked bullshit. Pictures manymany, tgk sendiri at FB !

Khairul , kau giler ((:

2010-07-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

I'm still doing it yeah :|

Oh anyways, the past week was nothing . Adult Nursing presentation's over , and it wasn't a good one i supposed . HS2131 test was a total disaster for me , writing all the wrong answers & also those stupid answers I actually included . My God ... I'm killing myself =.= I studied a lil bit harder for Nursing Theory Phase, and I guess it was a bit better than the other one. Sheesh , burok jugak perangai aku :D

Coming up , Nursing Skills assessment on Tuesday . I'm still stuck at practicing for injections . Eeyer, belajar betol-betol laaaaaaaaaa ! Morron , I need a big tub of lovely Hagen Daz ice cream . However you spell it as -.-

Don't start to haunt me, please.

2010-06-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO ! Sorry sorry, I totally forgot about updating blogs. A lot needs to be settled, hence the no time period to actually update. So, roughly what has been going on since after attachment ... That weekend, I went for SJAB Camp 2010 and I don't wanna talk much about it. Camp night was fun, & it's the day we all enjoyed the most :) Didn't do much during the camp, except stealing people's small pillows, sleeping bags and blanket. Cheers xD

2nd day of camp, I had a day off to go out. Out with his family for some karaoke session, with me and him just sitting down singing minus the mic :D Cute aku tawu! Then headed to ZamZam for dinner before they sent me back to school . THANK YOU !

After camp , I continued with driving pracs and I've fixed an instructor. *smile big big eh* Yadiyadiyada, projects, meetings, extra lab classes. Ah, thats my term BREAK lor. Then, last Sunday, out with his family again for Fathers' Day.

Next week , I've got ...

Monday: HS2122 Presentation

Tuesday: Pharmacology Quiz

Wednesday: Abnormal Psyc & Behaviour Mod Test

Thursday: Nursing Theory Test

Best thing about all the test, AKU BELOM BELAJAR SATU HABOK PON! See ah, TERM BREAK what ... pfft .

I'VE BEEN WRITING CRAAAAAAP . Diam ah , I wanna study .

2010-06-05T21:46:00.003+08:00

Charming, isn't he? ♥

Attachment has been great, with all the lovelydovey nurses who're willing to teach and guide us throughout any procedures or skills done. Many many thank you(s) to staffs in TTSH, Ward 8A (: A week left, and I'm gonna spend the time wisely . . .

Throughout the 3 weeks, quite a number of deaths occurred & I guess some of us are like traumatized by it. I remembered Zhang Yi had to do last office on the 2nd day of attachment. Wow, gerek. & myself ? I've been attending to patient's elimination needs , off-ing drip , NG feeding , and administrating medications. Not forgetting , parameters -.- HEH . 5 more days okay, five more daaayyyys je !

Will be having camp right after last day of attachment, and then more driving lessons and meetings in school . Some space to study during term break for the upcoming tests in first week of school and skills assessment in 2nd week . Aiyer , 2nd year is like all about school . It's like you and school can never get separated !

I'm off to get some peace of mind . No muggings for this week , no no no .

2010-05-23T14:29:00.003+08:00

A week of attachment, DONE. 3 more weeks to go and I'm sure I'll pick up more new skills soon (:

Morning shift tomorrow! Thinking of going back to school to continue my research for the projects. Looking forward to Wednesday, hopefully. Okay I'm done. Nothing much to talk about . Just know that I'm getting fatter.

2010-05-16T21:47:00.003+08:00

Last Friday USS trip was awesome! The place was nice, plus the company too (: Big big thank you to Khairul, Amelia, Ye Wen, Diviya, Ee Rong and Qian Wei for the night ! Should go there again when the place is fully ready . I had chilli fries at night for dinner before going home. Home, and slept.

Saturday was YOG training. Met up w Khai & Ye Wen and we headed to school . Bus host was my assigned job . The rest all got transport desk . Lucky Kak Aisyah came :D The tea break was nice! Chicken diyer... FUYOOOO ! I ate FOUR . plus some bread . Lunch was okay la ... Home at around 3 and then stopped by cwp for a short while. Finished up my assignment and then slept .

Today, searched for black shoe and then off to Bedok R with Pot . We stayed there for some time since it was raining heavily. I remembered the last time we went there, it was raining heavily also . Jodoh agaknye ... Bus back to Woodlands and then met Khairul for dinner . I had sweet&sour fish and waffle w ice cream :D

I wanna sleep already . Tomorrow loooong day.
That dream, was unexpected .

2010-05-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

I've been very very very tired these few days. Please help me out, I don't wanna be the only one that's putting in the effort. Thank you.

I shall leave this blog for now. Or maybe one last update this week before I go off for a month of attachment . Haiya , I'm still in the mood for SCHOOL okay :(

Friday friday friday !
Sunday sunday sunday !

2010-05-05T22:59:00.003+08:00

Happy 16th to Mifzal !

I've been spending my days sleeping and not paying attention during classes. Managed to even sleep during lab lesson ! I don't know why I've been so tired these few days but I think one of the reasons could be lack of exercise :P Haven't been doing any lately due to laziness. Diet intake has been more than usual these few days, and I've been asked many times about putting on weight .

I watched Kick Ass, like finally last Saturday :D It was fun and cool . Cinema was packed w ppl watching Iron Man 2. Went to nenek's house in the evening for some family gathering. Lepas segale rindu dekat sedare sedare-kus. Home, and slept .

I'm left w less than two weeks in school before attachment starts. GAAAH , am sooo not ready. I think I'll have to REread my first year skill book and brush up on those skills . Yikes, alot more to do and I hope I'll not be loitering around the ward doing nothing. I need better grades for clinicals oi .

I wonder if I can still fit in my uniforms.

2010-04-27T22:19:00.003+08:00

School started last week, hence I've less time w laptop . Won't be updating for now ; gotta focus on ICA-s which are coming in like the gushing of my farts .

Last week was well spent, and I enjoyed it. Celebrated Shidah's birthday on Friday and Bro's on Sunday. Glad that bro liked the present. Most importantly, it fits ! Hah ,

Now, back to school stuff . Im in a middle of doing research actually. Itchy hands wanna update abit .

2010-04-17T22:54:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's night spent w them. Gerek (!) ♥

Out at noon w Khai, and we watched Shutter Island. Wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be -.- We had lunch over at KFC Admiralty, and like finally I get to see Baby Ryan ! Super adorable, and I felt like biting those cheeks :D

Headed home and met Kobes before meeting Raudah at BnS. They got themselves some food and we headed to RP. Talked, crapped and camwhored. Home at around midnight, and shits.

School's day after tomorrow. I flipped through those lecture notes; some are interesting while most are just boring topics. I need a footwear by tmr ! I only have my flip flops and lab's on Monday! Haiyo .

Quoted from Jot few days ago : Lava lamp is nice to look at, but it gets boring after some time.

I have one in my room, I thought about it, and then I told myself : Even if it gets boring after some time, I must remember that it's the thing that brightens the atmosphere in my room and made me smile. The thing that lights up my night ♥

2010-04-15T12:21:00.003+08:00

SCREWED UP (!) ; Hell yeah, tell me about it .

Timetable's so crampy. I see alot of lectures and lesser break times.
But then, on a brighter note : Monday starts at 10 while Friday I end at 1pm .
Something to look for, lol .

Going off to buy those lecture notes now. I think I should start working hard this sem. Last sem was quite a disaster, so I need to put in a lil bit more effort this time round -.-

SCHOOL IN 4 DAYS TIMEEEEEE .

2010-04-11T20:50:00.003+08:00

Summary of the week: I've been mostly, super B-O-R-E-D .

On Monday, I went out to City Hall to change the lava lamp bulb and then to nenek's house and slack. Dinner @ Simpang Bedok but I got myself Roti John only. Out with Norashikin on Tuesday, to enrol ourselves and then lunch at KFC. Wednesday and Thursday was hell; stayed at home with absolutely nothing to do. Friday was a last minute plan. Met up w Farhana and then slacked at her house.

Saturday, out for lessons in the morning and then again rot at home. Sunday too, which is today. So yeah, nothing much to blog about.

BBQ w NR0912 tomorrow !

2010-04-04T22:38:00.003+08:00

ZOO was fun !

Went out early to transfer some funds at DBS, and then shopped for snacks at NTUC. Took the MRT to CCK, and then bus service 927 . Luck was on our side when this uncle offered to bring us in at the price of $15, instead of the usual $18. He had the card lah , so yeah :) Pictures at the entrance, and then we walked .

Went to all the places in the map, except for the Sun Bear. The Pygmy Hippo was mating when we got there, & everyone was somehow fascinated , not forgetting those underage ones ! Hilarious, and then off to see other animals.

It started to rain and we headed to the shelter and waited for it to stop. Pot got a lil bit frightened when the leopard went close to her, and then everyone including visitors laughed xD AND ! The leopard got horny aku rase, and spurt out a lil bit of semen .

Pot was forever with these few words: Srikandi, dedebu, bagaikan ____ yang jatuh dari ____, wawasan dan pedoman hidop. It continued like, forever? HAH . We ended the trip at the ZOO w a cup of Ben & Jerry ice cream. Bus-ed back to CCK and met up w Wan & Khai. Ate at Pastamania, and I was super blur how to order la . Bodoh betol -.-

We all had a good laugh, and then we headed to Khatib and waited for Mok. Walked to Bottle Tree Park, and Wan carried Pot till she dropped. HAHAH , sumpah kelakar (!) Slacked, and Khai went off first. Mok, Jot and I took the bus home and that was all .

I slept the whole day today. Sore throat, crackling voice, flu and headache. Apologies to Uncle Shukor & Kak Izzah for not being able to drop by f0r the studio launching . I sort of forgotten about it, heh (:

2010-04-02T14:21:00.007+08:00

A lucky day for the three of us :)

We had a short getaway from boredom yesterday. Iskandar fetched me at around half past 2, while Amsyar has already reached Bugis. HEH, sorry Am. He had to wait a lil bit longer when Isk couldn't find any parking space at Mustafa Centre. So in the end, we parked at Raffles Hospital . Prangaaaai, aku tawu :P

Met Am at Bencoolen and he bought a watch for his friend . Kayeeee kawan aku . Walked to Golden Landmark and we thought of having lunch at Victory. Isk saw his friend and told us to get a place first. Am and I did , but then Isk called and said his friend suggested eating briyani at we don't know where. So we met Is, and followed his friend. We didn't know his friend was bringing us to a restaurant in the hotel siak ! HAHAHA . Plus, the three of us were wearing slippers ! We had briyani, chicken masala, some naan(s) and drinks. Bill settled by Isk's friend. Wah, thank you! Isk said "Ah kau take it as birthday treat eh." HAHAH , pandai.

Drove down to Keppel Bay, and the view was quite nice(: Isk and Am kept on going : "Eh air dier biru eh", "Eh jellyfish dier panjang seh. " , " Eh aku rase ni pokok bawah air laa. " & Isk repeated it several times at random moments. HAHAH ! Fun ,

We headed down to Henderson Waves and walked up the steep slope. Fooh, tiring ! Relaxed , camera, lip sing, video, laughter and then we went off. Sent Amsyar back home before Isk dropped me at Ang Mo Kio. Met up w Khai and Ye Wen , and then back to Admiralty. Waited for bro and Arep at Mac, and we had dinner. Home, and laptop .

Thank you Is and Am for the day !

2010-03-31T20:43:00.007+08:00

30th March was a blast! Thank you all (:

Initial plan was to go Botanic Garden, but plan backfired since it was raining so we decided to go Cash Studio(: The WE consisted of Shikin, Shaqila, Haziqah, Fatin & myself. We had lunch at this gerai before going to the venue. Fun, laughter and joy. I tried somethig new today; singing w the microphone. HAH ! I love the session, because we ALL had fun.

The girl said there's free extension till 1am since it's weekdays and it's not busy. Haziqah looked like she wanted to stay but then they all said they wanna go home because Shaqila wants to meet her boyfr at Bukit Batok, and Haziqah was feeling sleepy alrd. So I just said okay,

Shikin told me to accompany her to CWP while waiting for her boyfr, and I said okay since I had no plan and I was not in a rush. We had drinks from Starbucks and Shikin told me her boyfr said plan changed and they will just meet at Yishun. I didn't suspect anything, so I just said okay and followed Shikin to search for her belt. Bazaar, and then CWP. By then, Khai was alrd texting me followed by sis and then bro. I thought they were just worried for me, so I wanted to get home fast. Shikin dragged by telling me she needed the toilet. So I was like okaaay, I shall just take the taxi home.

Shikin started to ask me where I was taking the taxi from, the journey back home and bla3. I started to find something suspicious when I asked if I should take the bus or taxi, and Shikin said "Bus la, birthday girl what... They can wait" HMMMMS. I rushed , walked fast and was shocked to see Shikin under my block.

Me: Shikin ! What're you doing here???
Shikin: Nothing nothing ! You just go up !
Me: But what are you doing here ?!?!
Shikin: I going my aunty houseeee !
Me: You said you were meeting your boyfr !
Shikin: Noo ahhh nvm u go up !!!

Just FYI, I never once told her my address, nor has she ever came to my house. So I went up, and then I saw that my house was dark. No lights near the window. Unlocked the door, ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ATIKAHHHH
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!

Awwwww(!) I'm surprised, really really. I couldn't speak for a moment. Those present were Shaqila, Fatin, Haziqah, Shikin herself -.- , dearest Jot & Pot, Danish, Arep and Khai. HAHAHAHA , WOW ! A surprise for me , waaaaaaaaaah ! Pictures taken, and then mom helped me w the cake.

It's really sweet of brother to plan all this for me. Really really, THANK YOU ADEK ! We all went down for dinner but Khai and Danish went home first. To my friends, a really big big big THANK YOU for everything. Thanks for making me happy, and yeah thanks for all the troubles (: Most importantly, thanks for the happiness, joy and laughter brought to my life. I won't forget this bit that you guys did .

To bro, thanks for the surprise. It was super unexpected but it did all worked out well. Thank you okay ! We'll try to help you carry on w life, and I'm sure you'll find another one, one day. It will come. You witness the number of times I changed mine, and the pain I went through etc. This is what you call life, brother. Life will have its bittersweet memories and experiences. You just need to live.

Today, went to school w Pot in the morning for the test. It went pretty fast, and we had some time before I had to meet Shikin and Pot , off to work. Headed to Koufu for dessert and then we went off. Shikin & I had lunch at BBQ Chicken , and for the very first time Shikin did not finish her food infront of me xD

Watched Remember Me, and it was nice! Only us and this aunty watched the show, so we had the whole place to ourselves. HAHAH ! We went to CWP in search of a shoe for me, but could not find any, and so we headed home. Thanks for today Shikin !

I'm waiting for the pictures from Brother's hp. & I'll be out w polymates tmrw ! More photos soon and also in FB !

2010-03-28T22:25:00.005+08:00

Bugis trip w them last Thursday (:

Met up w both babes at Bugis and we had lunch di BK. As you can see, we ate quite a big share each... Lapar katekannn . Walked up and down the lane in Bugis Street and we got ourselves some stuffs. I got myself a small bag, a black shirt and bottoms. We had ice creams after that, and Shaqila's reaction was super tak perlu . HAHAH .

Headed to the opposite side and I shopped for cardigans. Paid, and we decided to just call it a day since all looked super tired. Especially Shikin, heh . Alighted at Yishun and took 169 back home. I'm still not satisfied, I want to shop for more stuffs !

Today, sent nenek back to Bedok. Aunty cooked for us, and she made fried noodles also . Slacked and then bus-ed back to Woodlands. Dropped by Time Studio to grab a new watch . Finally ! A new watch, after 3 years plus. HAHAH . Thanks mom . & she gave me the $50 voucher from Isetan for me to shop . Lalalala xD

OCK , and then home. Mom said take private, Leman said take school. Abg said depends on confidence. Friend said take both -.- ... I'll be taking together w Shikin. YAHOOO !

2010-03-26T17:48:00.003+08:00

Date w Shikin yesterday to Marsiling (:

We headed to Teh Tarik for breakfast. I got myself Nasi Lemak, which I've been craving for quite some time already while Shikin had Lontong. This pakcik warned us , pointed on the floor and said lipas. Shikin sort of jumped and shouted , while aku blur blur carik lipas bodoh tu . HEH . Great day Shikin?

We did our hair, and then Shikin got a pair of colored lenses before we set off to Causeway Point and windowshopped. I wanted to buy a new pair of footwear, but I decided not to. Was searching for something nice but to no avail . Shikin's boyfr popped out outside Cotton On when he actually msged her saying he couldn't meet her and all . Cute pe, and Shikin step merajok. HAHAH .

Left them, and went home. I feel botak on my right side, probably because I never switch my fringe on the other side. Alah, paham-pahamkan aje.

Out to town tmrw. Can't wait !

2010-03-22T15:47:00.003+08:00

Say, finally; attachment ended last Friday. I'm gonna miss those staffs in the ward. They were super super friendly and most were willing to guide us through. Previously, the staffs in the previous ward were quite reluctant to guide us. I find this group much better and more fun to work with. Three weeks ended so fast, and I wished that I could stay for another three weeks (: Think again, I'm not ready to get sore feet all the time !

I've learnt quite a lot from this attachment, including things that are not taught in school. My clinical instructor super gerek! & I wish her an advance happy marriage yaw (: I couldn't get a nice group photo with my friends and also the nurses. Was rushing off to school for training -.-
Still, THANK YOU ALL for everything (:

NOW, three weeks of break. I still don't have enough activities for this few days.

* Results will be out tomorrow, and then breakfast with friend. I'll spend my evening watching movie or going to Aunt's house.
* Wednesday evening, jogging and VP with Raudah. Been months since we last jogged siak !
* Thursday, no plan. If my ass is not lazy, I'll fetch Pot from work :)
* Friday evening, back to WRS .
* Saturday morning, I'll do something with my hair.
* Sunday, no plan . Badminton maybe?
* Monday, blood test @ Woodlands Polyclinic.
* Tuesday, out w friend(s)
* Wednesday, date w Shikin.
* Sunday, ZOO with Pot & Jot.

So far, that's all . I need more !!!

On another note, I'm glad you showed your true self. You showed us that your words were never true. You showed us that you don't appreciate friendship, sacrifices made, time spent together etc. Maki us for all you want, we don't care. & yes, padan muke kau pasal dulu kene R_ _ _ L (:

2010-03-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

Colours of my life (:

Another week of attachment, GONE. I'm left with a week before I can enjoy my looooong holiday! To the next batch of people going for their attachment, all the best ehk xD . I'm gonna spend my last week of attachment wisely, grabbing opportunities to practice new skills instead of doing the usual routine -.-

A lot have been happening, and I'm really grateful to have understanding friends around me. My time with you is over, and I think you should know that. No point trying to make it up to me, because you know that that's not gonna happen in the long run. I gave you too many chances, but you blew it all up. So, all the best in life (:

I'm slowly coming up with plans for my 3-4 weeks break. Danish wants a cousin outing, FORCES wants a reunion pit, I want to do some catching up w old friends, especially Jot & Pot . It's been quite some time since we three sat down at ATAP together. Soon eh babes, soooooon. Korang tu, jangan busy sangat dengan pacar-pacar korang! HEH .

It's time to never look back yaw !

2010-03-07T21:47:00.003+08:00

Attachment has been great. The people, the staffs, the patients and C.I ... The only thing that's lacking is the work load. There's not much to do since mine is a medical ward. I've been doing mainly parameters, assisting patients and NG feeding.

I've been surviving on 4 hours of sleep daily and body's really shagged. Weekends like very short siak . Went out for training on Saturday morning, and bazaar at night. I had McSpicy for dinner and that was all . Nana and fam came on Sunday, and done.

Now, I need to REST. Morning shift tmrw =.=

2010-02-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

A new chapter reveals itself,

I slept at 5 in the morning and woke up at half past one. That too because I received a missed call from a friend. Too shagged, I guess ... Bathed and I finally dragged myself to iron my uniforms. Super hard time ironing the pants; I couldn't get a nice straight line while ironing the pants. HAH, anak dara ...

Something happened, and I called a friend to meet me. Shocking, unexpected... I wanna do something about it because I don't wanna be a burden. On another note, thank you for everything (:

Late lunch, and then I straight away hopped on bed. Burok perangai, I know :D I went out w mom after maghrib, to CWP. We shopped for some stuffs, and she kept on asking what I wanted for my birthday. I don't know, I have yet to decide but I did told her about my watch strap. She said might as well buy a new one and if I want, she'll get me a new Adidas watch for my birthday. I told her, see how. Expensive siaaaa !

I bought Old Chang Kee before we headed home. Now, I need my rest! I gotta wake up super early tomorrow ! Attachment siaaaaa, wish me luck people !

2010-02-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

I was out to Vivo on Thursday and Friday (:

Thursday, out of the house an hour before noon and headed to Vivo. Walked around the place for hours before we decided to have lunch. After much thinking, we decided on Pizza Hut and I got myself a nice Spicy Chicken Pomodoro w a nice glass of iced lemon tea. We went to catch the movie Dear John, and I'll give it a rating of 3.5 / 5 (:

Got ourselves drinks from Starbucks and separated ways soon after. My butt got soo cramped after sitting in the bus for more than an hour ! A nice quick bath, and I watched Big Momma House before getting my rest. Thursday was really well spent w you.

Today, I woke up to Shaqila's call and I hurried to take my bath :P She came to my house, and we headed to Novena to collect my specs and her new lenses . Trained to Harbourfront and waited for Haziqah. 45 minutes at the platform =.=

We had lunch first at BK and then went down to Forever 21 to do some mini shopping. I got myself 3 new tops, yeaaay! Walked around and I neaaaarly got a new bag seh , only that it costed me too much . Aiyah, next time . Starbucks again and then the both of us went to the rooftop to slack. Home, and then done!

I'm gonna stay home tomorrow to iron my clothes and get some rest before work on Monday !

I'm reaaaally happy! Thank you for everything (:

2010-02-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

Exam's finally OVER !
I screwed up on my last paper but, I don't careeeeeee (:

Last week, FORCES finally had a class reunion at Mdm Chong's house for CNY . I miss them a lot ! Most managed to come, and we all agreed to have a 2nd reunion; class bbq . A lot of photos were taken, uploaded in facebook. So yeah, do check them out !

I spent the examination week mugging, concentrating more on one modulethan the other. Results to not focusing much on my last module, aaaand that means I won't do well . I finished the paper in less than an hour, although the paper was a two hour paper . Prangai siak atikah -

Went over to Novena, and made my specs. I broke the current one while studying for psychology. The 5 of us; Shikin, Haziqah, Shaqila, K.Aishah and myself had our late lunch at fork and spoon. It was like having a feast seh! The chicken carbonara was nice, along with baked potato. We did some shopping, and I think i spent the most xD

Home, and atap with dearest Badots . DONE ! By weekend, I need to get my pants altered, search for my attachment shoes, iron my uniforms, THROW all the year 1 lecture notes and papers, clean my room and HAVE FUN ! Wow...

I'm going for a movie tmrw. YEAAAY !

2010-02-05T00:14:00.004+08:00

INACTIVE (!)
until after exam's over xD

To my friends , all the best for semestral examinations !
Lets chiong chiong chiooooong !

2010-01-31T14:36:00.003+08:00

I took the REtest last Thursday and I passed, alhamdulillah. I'm still wondering why the hell I failed when I actually did the exact same thing during the retest. Bias, as told by a senior who graduated 7-8 years back. Oh well, it's all done now.

VP with Raudah on Friday. We bought dinner from BK and bus-ed down to the park. Had dinner together, and of course the story telling. We spent two hours sitting down, eating and talking while waiting for the few at the swings to go away. Waited for so long until both needed the toilet. So we walked to Vista Point, used the toilet and came back, only to find the swings still occupied. Amsyar came, and we made our way back to VP.

We walked to the back, near the street soccer court, and waited for Iskandar to come. Talked, played games, laughed, and then walked home at near 3. reached home at near 4 and i went to bed after a quick shower.

Nenek came yesterday, and brought pengat. It was super duper nice! Too bad it wasn't a whole lot. Studied sociology, and then I got tired and took my nap xD A lil bit more of mugging at night before watching movies. Early morning call, and slept at 6.

Now, bio's waiting for me !

2010-01-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

Redz's gonna kill me for posting this photo xD

Out to RP w Redz last Sunday. Finished up Socio and we headed to Woodlands Mart for dinner. Redz treated me to Mac (: Home, and then I forgot what I did . Heh -

School on Monday was nothing much. Shikin was being very kind, treated Shaqila and I to MacD meal . HAHAH ! Baaaaaek . Headed to the library , and then I went out w Pot for prayers and bubble tea. Back to Blk K and then I became Haziqah's model . Congratulations to both Haziqah and Fatin for passing HA ! One less burden already eh korang eh . Home. Nap. Lepak. Stayed up late.

Tuesday was supposedly my REtest but due to time constrain, it was postpone to Thursday. Haiyer, & I really have no idea what I did for EBP . It's like, bullshit to me. I skipped Bio tutorial for my Hep B jab in the evening . Right arm feels numb now. I can't lift my arms high, pain lah .

I wanna sleep, but I can't . Movies are keeping me awake. No longer books xD

2010-01-24T02:19:00.002+08:00

On Friday, I skipped last lecture. Home and rested for a while. Down to CWP & met up w Shaqila. Accompanied her for early dinner @ BK and then up to Samsung to collect my handphone. She bought her ayam percik and ate it straight away (: I went back home before meeting Raudah at BNS. We bought food from the bazaar and bus-ed down to VP. It has been quite some time since the both of us went there together to spend some quality time. I miss the swings, yeahhh .

Saturday, I spent time cleaning up the junks in my room. I threw stuffs that's no longer needed and wiped away the dusts . Thick ones, heheh . Met up w Pot in the evening to get her socio book and back home. Slept at around 930, and woke up three hours later. That explains why I'm still awake right now . Hindi movies are keeping me busy right now.

Why can't you just understand that things are different now, and we can't change the fact that there's no turning back? It's all happening fast, and I think it's best if you just live it that way. Create that new life of yours, appreciate the gift and be a responsible person. I know you can, it's a matter of how you tackle those obstacles. I'm trying , you should too.

I still have an article on blood pressure to search for :|

2010-01-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

I failed skills assessment, but to make myself feel better...
I say this: There is NO failure, only learning experiences (:

I've been pretty busy this week ; hectic schedule. Bio Practical was a bitch . I had trouble doing more than 5 stations . Yeah, I've been slacking too much that I don't perform this semester. An eye opener. Home at around half past three, and dozed off. The three hours of sleep in the morning just wasn't enough.

Final ICA Presentation on Friday, and then I'll need to study for my retest which is on Tuesday. There's a tutorial assignment to be done by Monday, and articles to search for by I don't know when. Seriously, I need to speed up and start studying for upcoming exams.

I'm pretty much worked out. & I really need a break. Oh, the external activities too. Sighs.

2010-01-18T05:58:00.003+08:00

I'm super tired right now. Didn't sleep since yesterday. MAMPOS (!)

Went to Ibu's house and back home after Maghrib. Studied a portion of what I needed to, and then down to Woodlands Mart w Bro to get some food . Kitchen empty , lol . MacD for supper . Continued mugging and then late night call . Hang up at near 5 and bathed . Now, back to mugging . Lecture at 10 and then I get to go home at 11 xD

I'll either sleep, or study after school . See how later .

You're a bugger right now . I don't know your real intention . Make it clear to me, please.

2010-01-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

a friend told me to stop running away, and face the problems.

I'm unhappy w your words and actions, but I won't react to it for now. I don't find any reason to do it when it's gonna be over soon. Hence, I'll just keep it to myself . *smiles*

My days are getting more busy . I realised that there's a lot to cover for bio prac test. & till now, I'm still stuck at respiratory system =.= Won't touch on CNS any soon because it'll just freak me out. I still have wound dressing to memorise and practice plus materials to prepare for later's training. I don't TGIF , because I'll still have to mug like shit during the weekends.

After presentation and test, I aim to clean my room and I really mean CLEAN my room. It looks super dusty, messy and ubber disorganised. I need a new and bigger shelves for all my books and files. I need a new study table. I need to clear my wardrobe; throw away all unused clothes. I need HELP doing all this ]:

First semestral paper on the 19th Feb , clinical attachments begins 1st March . Luckily, we got the first three weeks instead of later . I'm sooo gonna enjoy the holidays . Soon ah eh, soon . For now, back to studying, geek.

2010-01-12T21:32:00.003+08:00

If bro never wake me up in the morning just now, I guess I'd be giving school a miss (:

Biological science practical next week and lecturer gave us hints on what to study for. I copied in a rush, & now I'm having trouble reading my own handwriting -.- 4 hours break for me and all we did was slack. I was super tired, and I tried taking short naps. BUT thanks to dear Shikin and Haziqah, I couldn't do so due to the flashes of the camera. Plenty pictures of me sleeping like a mad pig in school, lols.

Bio tutorial was fun (: Lecturer/doctor gave tips on losing weight and our clique got so hyped up wanting to really really lose those fats. Especially Fatin. Wahhhh, sexy Ah Tin eh? xD

I wanna watch CSI before mugging. Yessahhh , bye!

2010-01-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

At times, I just feel like I wanna stop growing .

Presentation went okay. Loved the game; Fong Lan made our day (: Moved on to Health Assessment Practical Test. It was damn tough; you should have heard how I responded to the lecturer. Pot said my voice sounded as though I wanted to cry. Alhamdulillah, I somehow passed even after much questions being asked by her. Praises to God. Thank you Pot for being my obedient model . HEH, lovely.

Early dinner at KFC before heading home. Slept for an hour, woke up and helped bro's gf answer some of her doubts. Babe, don't TRY eh . xD Bro was such a nuisance.

Bro: Ma, I got A1 for Maths.

Mom: Huh really?

Bro: No lah, I got D7.

Mom: WOW! That's goooood !

Irritating adek aku -.- , heh . I tried to sleep, but eyes won't just give in. Been sleeping like early in the morning these few days, and I think body's shutting down already. What to do...

I'm left w Bio Prac & Wound dressing before I can fully focus on semestral exams!

2010-01-10T00:12:00.003+08:00

I'm having fun in life, but at the same time I feel like running away from everything.

Back to NYP on Friday for the night open house. It was cool, but we did not stay back till the last . & I heard that the fun started when we left =.=' Headed to CWP for a quick shop and headed to Pot's house to slack. Thanks for the comfort Pot . Went back after the suria show and started doing the slides for training on Saturday. CMS was gonna do back up hence I won't be able to log in.

Late night call again, and someone dozed off on the phone. I turned in at around 5.30 in the morning and woke up near 8. Rushed to school after shower and had trainings. I left the ambulance by themselves since I had a lot to settle w the nursings. Home, and I slept like a pig all the way until after maghrib .

Went to neighbour's house for Erwin's birthday. They were all waiting for me before the cake cutting :| Cikgu Yati was there, and she was like tido eh awakkkk . LOL ! That means all knew I was asleep. Alaaahai , malu . Back home and I couldn't put myself to sleep. Another late night today, sighs.

I need to start cleaning my room already. Especially my study table. It looks horrible right now and ants are crawling all around. I don't remember keeping sweet wrapers sehh, hmms . How do I reset my biological clock ? It's going haywireeee .

2010-01-06T22:23:00.005+08:00

I'm free from school today till Friday :D

That means I've extra time to catch up with my studies, especially to mug for the tests... Health Assessment is really freaking me out . Gotta chiong on that module, followed by Bio and Skills .

I slept for a mere 5 hours last night ; that too being forced to sleep by friend . Woke up, feeling a lil bit giddy . Went to school and I lost my way searching for the place -.-' Checked about the ezlink card, and the person told me that I needed to update the card since I applied for it during DPA . AND, the school has yet to update my sponsorship status, and I have to inform them and after a few days or so , my card will no longer be in use and I'll have to use the normal adult fare. WTH WTH WTH ! Now I need to spend a lil bit more on transportation , URGH .

Home, quick nap before meeting Danish at the bus stop. Back to WRS for CCA Orientation . Met quite a number of missed people . Awwww xD Hidayah took the time to search for me , just to inform me that Mimi was looking for me . Sweet eh? HAH . Had quick chats here and there with different people, and most of the time Mimi was with me . Much missed , [:

Nothing much to talk about, except that I think the Orientation two years ago was muchh more fun ! A lot agreed . OH and , i giggled to myself seeing the way this person tried to show that he/she is not scared by my presence or something along that line . Kesian eh, detest by many yet tak sedar diri . WAAAAAH (!)

Didn't bring along my camera, so that explains the lack of pictures. Went home w juniors; Shanad, Amalina & Hajar. Planning for a quick trip w them next week .

Now, I need informations for my final presentation for Semester two. Chioooong !

2010-01-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

What happened to the picture in my previous post ?

I did not sleep well last night. Was awake till around four in the morning and I had less than three hours of nap . OMG , I'm damn tired alright . Went to school feeling all tired, but friend made me laugh all the way to school . Thank you .

I wasn't paying attention to the lecture. Dozed off during the second half of lecture and woke up when it ended . Very rare you see me sleep you know xD

Went back w Raudah, making a quick stop for lunch at KFC . Home, short nap and laptop-ing till now . Gotta go back to school tmrw to check out about my ezlink card . Baek-baek no school, still need to drag my ass there =.=' Anyone willing to accompany me, anybody?

Happy.

2010-01-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

Tell me, come on (:

Back to school in a few hours time, and I've yet to go to bed. Something's keeping me up, and I'm not sure what it is. Anyway, I'm done with essay, but not the rest of what I need to.

Rumors has it that tomorrow is e-learning for sociology. Heh , friends ... I guess they're all still in the holiday mood , so they just turn everything into elearning themselves. Heh, cute per kengkawan-kus.

I wanna have a fresh start this year. Yes , get a lifeeeeeee (!)

Oh ya, went out to slack w Shaun few hours ago . That guy, he is super random. Talks random stuffs too. Lol .

2010-01-02T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'm super duper tireeeed . Since I woke up late in the evening yesterday, I couldn't sleep the whole night . Chatted w a few people and came down to two . Webcam-ed with them and one had to go . So, I spent my whole night chatting and webcam-ing a friend.

We stopped at near 6 in the morning, and continued chatting on the phone. Both couldn't sleep, and we were supposed to make each other tired. Instead, both had a good laugh, especially me :D It's been quite some time since I talked to anyone that long. Tunggu aje bill datang , confirm BOMB .

Slept at 7.30 in the morning, and woke up at around 11am . Out w family, and now back in my room . I'm supposed to be studying for Health Assessment, but brain wants to take a break . Chill chill -

Monday is coming sooooon, and i need to go back to Ibu's place and grab my jeans. Else I've no bottoms to wear to school :|

2010-01-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to ALL (!)

Eve of new year, I spent the whole day with friends & I'm thankful to have them. Met dearest Shikin in the morning and we bought tickets to Sherlock Holmes. Went around CWP in search of hoodies but none were found. I bought new contact lenses and we rushed back to the topmost level. Movie was great, and I envy that guy for having such a great brain. Lunch at LJS, and then to Chamelon to grab some head bands. Home, and helped bro to find a decent bottom for the night.

Bathed, and out to meet Shaqila. Went straight to the cinema and we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 . Oh they are super cuteeeee (!) If only there were REAL chipmunks that talk, I'd loveeee to have one of them :D So after the movie, took the bus to Esplanade. Heh, we got lost and nearly got into Geylang . Funny sia that one, and we had to cab down to Esplanade.

Met up w Pot & Wan . Sat down, and waited all the way till midnight for the countdown and fireworks . Countdown-ed w Shaqila , and then when it strikes 12 , we shouted and had fun ! The fireworks were nice , and we chose not to record it down because we want it to be a one thing memory and make it stays inside our head . Cool eh-

Joined force back with the couple and headed to Raffles MRT. Met up w Wan's friends and the whole lot of us trained to Pasir Ris. Shaqila went back home since it's her 3rd anniversary today. Someone vomitted in the train and it smelled awefully of alcohol =.=

Bought supper before heading to the beach . It was nice, i mean the whole night out thing. The guys were terribly childish ! Hahah , but I had fun chatting with them and playing all the games we had in our minds . All had a good laugh, I did too :) Especially the charade, part kene guess sume guess merepek2 . HAHAH ,

We went off at around 7 and trained back to Woodlands . We couldnt find any seats in the train, so we sat down on the floor like shameless people. I don't care, because I was effing tired . Bus-ed home and had a quick bath before jumping into bed .

Woke up at 5pm , that too because mom called -.- That was my new year . Better than last year, and I definitely enjoyed myself :D:D

So now, a new year means a fresh beginning. To let go of the past, to erase all the sorrows. To piece myself together and get a life [:

2009-12-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

I've been dreaming about this friend of mine, and it's quite scary actually.

HAHAH (!)

Tomorrow is the last day of 2009. I don't wish to be sad , and so I'm gonna try and make myself happy the whole day. I hope it works *prays very very hard*

I've yet to clean up my room and tidy up my desk. I'm glad that I only have two days of school the week it reopens [:

2009-12-28T22:34:00.001+08:00

Reposted from Redzuan's blog .

& I so so so soooo agree with it xD

I had fun today at Shikin's crib, although she was an hour late . Hoho , shit happens man . Will blog about the today some other time . Right now, I really need to finish up the essay. Behind time already, omg omg omg (!)

Hey you, I get worried each day I don't see you online because,

I'm afraid that I won't hear from you again :x

2009-12-28T02:21:00.002+08:00

Singapore's crazy . & I never thought that people can go crazy over the results which was a few hours ago . Even bothered to create a page of hatred and stuff like that . Say, grow up people, GROW UP . The idol has been chosen, and it's chosen by majority . Else , Sezairi won't be getting the fame. Live up to it, and the fact that that guy is our idol .

I'm not trying to be racist or whatever you wanna call it . But , I don't know ... When people fight about who should win and everything , it sounded as though THEY are the racist ones. Push it aside people . So much for being a racial harmony country.

Congratulations to Sezairi for clinching the fame of becoming our 3rd Singapore Idol . Prove to the people out there that you deserve it , and I'm sure you'll do a great job just like the previous two idols .

To Sylvia, I congratulate you for being the top female finalist and making it to the top 2 . It's rare to see females being the last few and I must say you too , gotta great voice .

& NOW, I NEED TO FORCE MYSELF TO SLEEP (!)

susahnye nak tido ]:

2009-12-26T21:14:00.002+08:00

Some are too busy catching up with others , and forgetting the ones they left behind.

I went to school last Thursday, together with Mardy in the morning to do our essay. Like finally, I started on it and I got quite a bit of books for references. Library closed at one and we headed to eighteen chefs for lunch . The food's great , and it was worth the money :)

Headed home, a quick bath and went to Bedok. Uncle Rey's side of the family were there to visit him and aunt . So i volunteered to help out a bit since I had nothing to do. Was too tired to go home so I spent the night there . I laughed at myself for thinking that the telekong in the praying room was a pochong . Stupid , i know xD

Home in the evening and I spent some time continuing on the essay. Headed to the library with Redzuan today. Had brunch at Pizza Hut before we made our way to the library to mug. I was super stress with the effing essay la ! & I nearly went out of point =.=' Redz complaint of hunger few hours later and so we stopped our work and headed off to Admiralty KFC for dinner . Saw Izzan with his dad and cute lil bro .

Currently, I'm damn tired and mind's not active enough to finish up the last part of my essay. Shall save that for tomorrow and hopefully everything's done by then.

2009-12-23T22:21:00.004+08:00

Last Monday , lunch date w dearest DPA members . Two couldn't make it, so there were only the four of us ; Mardy , Ayda , Nadzeef & myself . We were supposed to meet at 3pm but we dragged all the way till near 4pm . Hmmms , okay then we headed to Popeye and started ordering .

Nadzeef die die wanted us to buy the platter set or something, but all wanted own choice . Hehehh sorry dude (!) Next time eh , next time :D aaaand so I got myself a nice 2 piece chicken meal , plus calamari rings . Food was average , okay no more comments * zips mouth*

We walked around T3 , while Nadzeef snapped most of our pictures . Headed down to the basement and we had no plans already so I guess all decided to leave :P Headed back to Marsiling , to Ibu's house . Waited for them to get ready and papa sent me and nenek back to Bedok . Spent the night there [:

Tuesday , went to the airport again to fetch aunty and uncle from Haj . Back to Bedok and helped out in the kitchen . Anak daraaaaa , heheh . Tv tv tv , and then papa sent me and sis back home . DONE .

Wednesday , school in the morning to practice my health assessment . Syakirah's house in the afternoon for lunch which was KFC Buddy Meal , and then to Afifah's house in the evening to practice the thorax and lungs system on her :D Watched SAW and headed back home at night .

I feel like I'm doing a lot these days. No time to rest and definitely no time to slack . There're a lot of things that clashed this week . Apologies to Kak Ain for not watching your performance ! I was caught up w the events above :(

Tomorrow, my initial plan was to do my essay in school . BUT , it clashes w the Vivo outing w Badots . So I guess I'll have to go school early and try to get some references :D

Goodnight readers (!)

( Amali's 11th Birthday. ) ; 5th December 2009

2009-12-21T10:07:00.003+08:00

There're alot of obstacles to go through in life ,

& all you gotta do is to just carry on w life.

Because through every obstacles, there will be happiness at the end of it .

You just have to BELIEVE .

Changi Airport yesterday . Chaos . & there's this man who kept on shouting "Eh hello ! Move out la move out la ! Don't jam the way. " I got so pissed , because he was VERY impatient . Even the cisco working weren't so loud =.='

I got pissed , and started cursing the man . Why ? Because when his family members came out , he and his troupe jammed the walkway . BODOH PEH PAK CIK !

2009-12-19T23:24:00.003+08:00

My post was deleted , unintentionally :(

I spent the whole day at Bishan CC where there's this Ind-Rock performance organised by O'lando Studio . Crew was made up of the Uncle's sons, daughters, grandchildren and relatives. I gained experience from this new exposure and of course, I had fun .

Performed by local bands like Engine Rush, Sunny's Violet Rays, Blue Exit, Kamal n Frenz, Scrap Metal, Addy Cradle (solo artist), Putra, Black, Boy Raven + Man Toyak, Crossover and Knights. The first few were the young bands while the last few were the established ones . Cool people , and and sommore I get to escort most of the established bands [: Ewaaaah (!) Okay tak perlu -.-'

Took several pictures w the different bands, but I doubt I'll get hold of the pictures . Went off at 10pm and here I am blogging . Long and tiring day , sumpah penat -

2009-12-18T23:50:00.002+08:00

To find the true meaning of love ...

People , have fun during your two weeks break . It won't be a long one , trust me .

As for myself , I have assignments to complete , skills to study & plans to go out . That should keep my two weeks busy . That essay, die die have to finish in three days time .

I slept over at Farhana's crib for two nights and we had fun sharing, laughing and crying . She dreamt about something weird also , kononnye like Hindustan ahhh - Ibu & Papa will be back from their Haj this weekend . I'll be sleeping over at nenek's house pulak until Tuesday .

I wanna get some peace

12.12.07

2009-12-16T07:41:00.002+08:00

I want to go to a place where there's little noise & distraction . Too exhausted to carry on ,

Term break is approaching & I realise that I've got quite a number of dates planned out & I just hope things won't clash . I need to complete my assignments , as well as catch up with old mates . If there's extra time , IF only eh , I wanna complete doing the E-learnings also . Heh , busy busy busy .

Off to school yaw , good day readers (!)

2009-12-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

Okay-okay as promised, a post about the chalet [:

Left house after Asar and took 168 to Tampines . Switched to bus service 3 and alighted at Downtown . Chalet was the Costa Sands punya , so we had to pay a dollar each . Most were there , except for Diyana & Zhafran who couldn't make it at the very last minute =.='

Prayed first before I rushed to grab the food . HEHEH , & I think i ate A LOT of satays and chicken wings. It was nice , ready to eat sommore . I made friends with Alex and Jimmy, who I initially thought were father and son :| Cik Zizah tak kasi intro , so I just ask with my muke tak tawu malu lor . Hilarious , but both were spontaneous . COOL (!)

Abang Danial came later with his new DSLR camera and I tailed him all the way just so he can snap more shots of me . HAHAH ! Yet to get the pictures from him , due to his laziness to meet me . Patience Atikah , patience .

I don't know what to blog lah , but all I know is that I had fun at the chalet . Too bad it was only for a few hours since none of my cousins were staying over ]: Home taking 969 . I walked alone , earpiece plugged in . Didnt know my family stopped for some errands . HEHEH, lucky I had my keys w me :D

Some pictures from the chalet , can't post all here . Im waiting for dearest abang to send all pictures to me (!)

DANISH <3>

The one in black is Alex , blue is Jimmy. White is Fadli and green is Zhafirin.

The girl there, is the hot chick at the chalet :D

Okay, muke tak tawu malu langsoooong ,

Wayuni & Seri ,

Mom, Dad, Bro.

Lil Sis busy eating I think :|

2009-12-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

Sofian sent me an email & I find it interesting . So i thought of sharing it here [:

Will blog about the chalet later , once Abg uploads all the pictures from his camera :D

While everyone is clearly different and dealing with their own set of unique circumstances, I really believe that at some level each of these ideas can be applied to just about anyone. Take a look, consider them, and let us know your thoughts in the comments.

Life isn't smooth sailing.
You will need to accept that there are bound to be some hiccups in your life. We can't control everything in the world and there will be times when things are not going in the direction that we want. This should not be a reason to make you feeldepressed about life. Instead, accept that not everything will turn out in your favor and learn from it.

Live a life without excuses
If you live a life full of excuses, you will find yourself stuck in misery. Excuses tend to deny you of success and results because whenever you think of doing something that is in alignment to your goals (quit your job to run a business, start your new exercise routine, etc.) an excuse prevents it. How many times have you 'had no time', 'been too busy', 'been too tired'. Decide to stop excuses from ruling your life and take control of the steering wheel of your life.

Stop thinking about life's purpose.
I used to spend so much time pondering about my life's purpose. Now that I think of it, I find that I had wasted too much time thinking about this question. I thought so much and did little to act on anything. Know that there are no destined paths that we should take, instead we should create our own path, do things that we enjoy doing, and charge ahead aggressively.

Failure is your best mentor
I once heard a saying that if you want success in life, you will need to fail more and fail fast. Failure is a better mentor compared to success. Failures allow you to learn from your mistakes and move on to find ways that work. Instead of fearing of failure, embrace it. As Thomas Edison said, "I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward."

Those who persevere will reach the finishing line.
Life is not a sprint, it is a marathon; only those who persevere will reach their goal. Sure, we've all heard these things before but giving up seems all too common. The most common mistake that people made is that they quit too fast. If you want to reach the finishing line in the race, all you need is to keep on going. It doesn't matter if you finish first or last, you are going to reach your goal if you just keep on going. Consider that before throwing in the towel.

Those who fail to change are bound to fail.
It is insane when people try to do things the same way over and over again and expect to get different results. Life is going to throw you the same challenges over and over again until you are able to change and over come it. For example, if you find yourself constantly broke, you will remain broke until you change your bad spending habits. Even if you go earn a ton more money, you problems aren't solved because you'll simply spend on a grander scale. Study the core of the problem and solve that!

Positive people are hot favorites.
It pays to be positive. Positive people see a bottle half full instead of half empty, which means they have a higher tendency to pick up opportunities or lucky breaks. They are the ones who are able to see opportunities in a crisis. Those who are negative are only able to focus on the crisis and thus failed to see any opportunities lying in it.

There are enough for everyone
If you want to be prosperous, you will need to have an abundance mindset. If you work in a scarcity mindset and think that there are not enough for everyone, you tend to suffer from scarcity. You see rich people donating money away and they remain prosperous or bloggers giving away free content yet they are still able to keep on writing great content. So if you want more of something in your life, give some of it away first and you will receive more of it. Life works this way.

Live life without regrets
I was admitted into the hospital last year and during that time I was reminded that we only live once. To some people this means 'do it all' or 'take more risk'. To me, it's larger. It means what we do today cannot be undone. This minute right now is your last chance to impact the next minute.Remember this, you only have a single lifetime and how you are going to live is totally up to you.

Live your life outside your comfort zone
Most of us are stuck in our comfort zones. This means that our growth is limited because we are always running in the same circles: fearing change, fearing pressure, fearing success, fearing work. Personal growth means that one must learn, excel and expand. If you truly want growth, you will need to move out of your comfort zone every now and then. We're not talking daily, but periodically take a plunge into something that you typically wouldn't.

Written on 12/10/2009 by Vincent Tan. Vincent writes about personal development at HealthMoneySuccess.com. His site's main aim is to help others to break out of mediocrity and unleash their maximum potential.

2009-12-12T14:07:00.002+08:00

That's for you.

I need a break from school . Too exhausted , and I think my brain cannot absorb much now . School's a bitch , really . *sighs* A trip to Bedok Reservoir would be nice, accompanied by someone at least .

Haircut w Farhana & Faa . Not much difference because it was only fringe cutting and a bit of trimming . Costed me 12 bucks , which I think is not really worth it =.=' Back home and Raudah came, without me knowing . Jogged and then we headed to Admiralty for dinner. Heh , balanced lifestyle [:

Walked to VP, and had some sharings. Urgent toilet call, so both brisk walked to Vista Point . HAHA , kelakar I tell you . Headed back to VP , walking to the back where there's the bbq pit there . Iskandar already arrived and Raudah stayed for awhile only . Adi sent her home , leaving me and Is to lepak .

He had a lot of stories to share, some of it were ghost stories. I had goosebumps all over, plus the windy night . FOOOOH , scary :| There's this cat which kept on running and it really irritated me . Iskandar sent me home, on his bike. He like, speed slow speed slow , making me jerkjerk at the back ! & I kept knocking onto his helmet . HAHAH , thank you for the ride home Iskandar !

Reached home at near 3, and then I did my prayers before going to bed.

Right now, I'm waiting for the time to go out to Costa Sands :D Family Chalet , woooohoooo (!)

2009-12-07T19:52:00.002+08:00

Some things got better , but some got worst. I just don't understand why the world is unfair. Okay, plain childish :D

I realised that there's a lot to do . Theory test , worldskill screening , ICA(s) , chalet , volunteer works , essay , and many more . I had totally forgotten about the essay that will be due in January :| Too much work , & I'm always behind time. My time management sucks , haish .

I don't care if you don't believe, because I think you are just another plain jerk :)

2009-12-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

Something I got off from Farhana's blog. It's a good extract, really . I've learnt some valuable lesson from it. Enjoy (!)

“The Dalai Lama’s Instructions for life: Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson. Follow the three R’s: - Respect for self. - Respect for others. - Responsibility for all your actions. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. Spend some time alone everyday. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality. Be gentle with the earth. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.”

— The 14th Dalai Lama of Tibet

2009-12-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

Last Wednesday, celebrated Ayuni's 17th birthday at her house . Malek made me pissed in the evening & I was about to go home but I changed my mind because it's not always that I get to meet them all [: I gave Malek a cold treatment initially until Shidah told him why I was acting that way. Heh, & he apologised non-stop . Sorry eh Malek , hahahaha (!)

So Rabbani went home first because he needed to pack his bag for his trip to I forgot where the next day. Went up to Ayuni's house and surprised her w the cake bought by Malek, Rabbani & Raudah. Took pictures and left . Malek & I cabbed back home since he was already late . DONE , and I still owe the birthday girl her present :|

So here, the birthday girl !

& this . Th one who plays bowling w me at msn :D MALEK !

Friday evening, headed to CWP w Pot to grab some stuff and went home. Took my time to have dinner, prayed and walked to Admiralty . Bought some snacks from shop n save and cabbed down to VP . Met up with Raudah and we saw Didi and Zaini . Slacked , talked , laughed . Hyder & Amsyar came later . These guys are really funny when they crack jokes or act like a girl . Especially Hyder , eeeyer . HAHAH . & he was trying to tempt me with something that I can't take anymore :( Dah , shut up .

Raudah & I spent the night at VP & Champions Way. I couldn't tahan the mosquito bites so we walked to my house from Champion's way. Raudah slept at my house, kononnye nak wake up to wake Hyder up . End up both of us slept all the way till around ten :D I can HEAR Raudah was damn tired , and I apologise for waking you up babe .

Evening, Along and Suriyani came over. Nana and her siblings reached a while later. We all went to CWP and did some shopping. Mom bought me a dress and I paid for my own tops from Cotton On . Dined in to Swensens and I swear I was really full after a whole big plate of spaghetti , fries and dessert. WOW , kenyang gileeeer ! Nana & I had a good laugh . Ehems , heheh . Home along w Suriyani and Faa . The three lil kids are sleeping inside my room and I was asked to sleep inside the non air-conditioned room =.=

Currently not in the mood to sleep YET . Gotta settle some issue , aiyeeer .

Siti Amali, the birthday girl .

*points up* That's Farhana . Interested , anyone ?

2009-12-05T12:45:00.002+08:00

Since there're not many followers , or maybe NO followers at all , I'm thinking of moving to onsugar . HEH , maybe a lil change should help it . But still, this blog won't be deleted because it holds many memories .

I still don't know if I should change [:

Should I ?

2009-12-04T07:13:00.002+08:00

People change ; be it good or bad . But people around them don't always accept the new changes made . They gossip, they laugh, they look down on them. Sometimes, to the extend of throwing them out of the group. Sad ayye? & again, RANDOM .

Presentation last Wednesday went well . Alhamdulillah, I managed to talk without much of the uhh and ahhh [: Hoping to get a good grade , insyaAllah .

Haziqah , the one in pink is no longer an SJ super freaky maniac . She still adores them, but not to the extend of always in her fantasy while at school . We love the new her , but not saying that we hated the way she was ! She made this change ever since she cam back from a 4 days 3 nights trip to JB . *Ehems* Apeee je yang jadi kat sane eh Ziqah (: But yes, we're glad that Ziqah is Ziqah now . Hoho xD

I need time to think, and be alone for a moment . I'm really tired of all the buzzing and chaos that has been going on . & frankly saying , I hate the way things are now . There's a huge gap in between all of us that needs to be closed . Dan juga , the disputes and arguments . Internal conflict . *sighs*

I've got another test next week and I'm fully UNprepared . I've no mood lah , I just wanna go out and chill . Anyone willing to go with me ?

2009-11-30T21:25:00.002+08:00

This is me when I'm still in my 4th year in WRSS . I look damn fat & I blame the uniform for that . HEH [: I used to have fun with this people , & i'd be with them during breaks ; gossiping and teasing others , making a lot of noise until I kena "ATIKAHHH , SHUT UPPP!!! " By dearest Ms Siti . I'm sure Raudah remembers the incident well . HAH ,

That babe on top * looks up * , is Shikin . She listens to me babble about almost everything . Especially about my problems, my sorrows, my worries, my concerns, my happiness, my gila-ness aaaaand personal problems. I remembered once that I ran to her house , crying . All thanks to bro . HAHAH .

The hotstuff, my Redzuan :D We had alot of history ever since 1st year in WRS . Fights, quarrels, misunderstandings, and the thing that brought us together ? His CAMERA . Hahah , really thankful for that . We became close, and like Shikin , we share almost everything with each other. This one also tends to tegor me when i make mistakes or when he's not happy with me mixing around with wrong people, doing wrong things etc etc. Until now, we still share our stories , aaaand I really wish that our friendship won't end . He's like a brother to me . & , we still fight for the smallest matter =.=

My class for two years. We had a very close bond, even with the teacher . We were not the perfect-est class . Teachers do complain that our class are not up to standard or not maintaining our academic performance level . But , I guess my class did not care much as long as we are happy with one another. I remembered a few teachers who got really disappointed with our class behaviour and performance. HEH , shall not mention any . Remember back then when during one of the GEOGRAPHY lessons, only 4 did their homework ? & the teacher refused to teach ? HEH . ALL had to go out and say sorry to the teacher. HEH , omg . and when nearly the whole class failed physics ? O.Ooo

I miss those few people dearly . It's really different in poly .

2009-11-28T12:05:00.002+08:00

Am I suppose to know something ?

*sighs*

We should start sharing problems , heh . There's always something not right . HMMS . anyway , Raya Haji was nice . Went to ibu's house and then nenek's house. Met Dee , Zhaf , Fadlin and their families . Hoho xD I ate alot , and when I was full , I still sumbat myself . Went back to ibu's house , and Abg Ayat's family were there :) Finally, dapaaat jumpe .

Currently at Nana's house . Staying over till tomorrow night . Faa will be going over to my house later . HEH , I'll be going out with Nana later , once she reach home from school . Haiyer , Im still sleepy ]:

Studies doesn't mean anything to me right now. Should I quit ?

2009-11-26T20:57:00.002+08:00

Gemoknye aku [:

It feels good when you achieve something out of your own hard work. There's just this sense of satisfaction that no one will ever feel but only you yourself. Still, hard work doesn't mean you have to stress and really push yourself until you get all sick and unwell to continue your daily routine and stuff like that. It just means that you have to know the right method and which method that works best for you. I don't know, random thoughts.

Another random paragraph . I love going to Sofian's blog . He has this talent for writing great posts and I just love reading them. It'll make me reflect, and give the few posts some thoughts. You should try reading the posts, it's nice. Link can be found under my links corner (Abu Sofian) . Something he got from his father maybe? Heh . Keep on writing Sofian ! I'll always stalk your blog to find out what's new [:

School has been okay. I don't really feel the work load this week, maybe because there's not much to study? HEH , right ~Not much to study =.= Bio test was last Tuesday, and results are already out ! Alhamdulillah , results memuaskan .

Movie date with Shidah and Raudah was nice. Went to watch 2012 after school . We had early dinner before the movie. All had bulgogi , only that I ate 2/3 of my portion , and gave the rest to Shidah . Raudah helped me with the rice . Might as well I don't buy right- Movie was nice, * two thumbs up * . Somehow, I was a lil bit on the sotong side that day. I keep on bumping into Shidah, and there's always something wrong with my words and action . Alah , you know that sort of thing . Tak boleh disalahkan... Orang tengah saket :P

Raya tomorrow! Unlucky because Papa Li won't be around . So Danish and fam won't be at nenek's house. Dee will come late i think . So I guess I will only meet Zhaf's family. I don't know about Cik Nor's fam, Kak Haliz, Uncle Mat's and Abg Hairi's fam. Going to Ibu's house in the morning to send the lauk to nenek . Abg Ayat pon datang malam ! Haiyaaaa . I'll stick to msging people on my hp then ]:

2009-11-24T11:40:00.002+08:00

*chuckles*

Maybe you just don't know reality , xD

Bio test was do-able. Wasn't that hard lahh . Many thanks to those who gave me hints here and there [: At least I don't have to crack my brains much . Jyeahh ,

Currently in school , waiting for the rest to finish HS1090 . Booooring ! Oh oh , money in tomorrow ! Will be out with Raudah & Shidah to _______ . Yet to decide lah , nanti-nanti boleh plan.

Eh so, Bio down ... HS1092 test to go . & I've got only TWO weeks to study. First presentation for this semester , next week. Sighs, life. ICA(s) are killing me !

Eh , die die die . I don't care. More than happy , oh yeah .

2009-11-23T19:17:00.001+08:00

Kak Siti's wedding was nice . I love the decorations and the pelamin . Pity that I don't know where my blue camera went to . If not , I'd be snapping pictures sehhh ]: Oh anyway , the food was superb also ! Heh , but but I couldnt finish my portion of food . Don't know why le , but certainly NOT on diet eh .

After years of silence, finally I get to meet Abg Hairi . I didn't know he was FIVE years older than me . He's a grown up now, hmms . Wonder if he has any girlfr . Hoho XD , eh but really really . Hanseeeem abg sedare aku yang satu tu . It was awkward when we first talked, because basically we don't know what to share. But after a while, I began getting used talking to him and we did have fun . Although we haven't met for years, the bloodbond is still tight [: I hope we'll still be in touch after the process is confirmed and completed . Sighs, life...

Home, and I had to finish up my Health Assessment homework . Studied two lectures of bio and I dozed off .

In the morning, went to ibu's house and I had my breakfast there. Lontooong ! Drove down to the airport and waited until ibu and papa went in. Selamat pergi and selamat kembali okay ! I pray for your safety while at Tanah Haram. Ameen. Cik Malik sent me to school and I met up with the rest in the library. Mugged and then lesson. DONE!

I've got a bio test tomorrow and I'm off to study! Goodnight people [:

2009-11-22T12:47:00.003+08:00

I've been spending quite some time with Raudah this week. School is the usual routine, so no point repeating . I have a Bio test coming up next Tuesday and I wanna score again [: Pray hard okay , pray hard . I've got a day left to finish the remaining 8 lectures and to REflip the pages again . Can make it ? Hmms .

Trip to VP on Friday and Saturday night . Friday , time was spent with dearest Raudah and Amsyar . Raudah and I went for a jog before meeting up with Amsyar . Raudah , full of confidence alighted at the wrong bus stop . HAH , oh well . Swinged myself to free myself from deep thoughts. Pictures taken using Am's laptop and we headed home .

Saturday, the two of them came to my house in the evening to study. I started first since they came late. 4 hours of mugging for me, and then mom bought burgers for us and cooked fried noodle . THANK YOU MA ! After prayers , we headed to cwp to search for Am's dad's present before he went home. Raudah and I continued spending the night at the swing, and then to Crescent Park with Iskandar . A night full of laughter, really . OH and , Is has a soooothing voice and I enjoyed listening to him sing.

Uh, i screamed on the bike. Enough said . Home and slept at near 3 . Right now, I'm gonna get ready for Kak Siti's wedding .

Enjoy your day readers !

2009-11-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

Too much for me to handle?

I never expected the news to affect me so much. I didn't realise it was going to come my way. I thought the issue was settled back then, and it won't happen , at least not to the extend of _______ . I thought it was an empty threat, but she proved us wrong.

I have to understand too . I won't ruin anything, I promise. I will pray for their happiness and I hope Danille Asyriq will grow up to be a charming boy, like the father . It's time for a very heavy responsibility , do it and do it well .

Maybe everything that happened all this while, has it's own significance. I still treasure those times back then. I promise to try and move on, even though it's gonna be a slow process. I refuse to delete your messages.

Ya Allah ya TuhanKu, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat untuk menempuh segala cabaran dan dugaan dariMu , Ameen .

2009-11-15T11:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, people really need to put their ego aside and try to apologise or something. Don't act as if the fault is not on your side , like seriously . What does the years of friendship mean to you ? Well I hope it means something because, you were once a part of us and now you left us for a guy . The brain has gone down to the butt . I have nothing to say , ZERO . KOSONG ! Sighs , people are people and sometimes we change our mind . You did not even wish your own friend on her birthday . We don't know what's going on in your head but your actions are certainly making us hate you even more. THINK babe, THINK .

Raudah came over yesterday to study . & so we did study a little before going to the kitchen for lunch . After we filled our stomach, Raudah headed for the bed and slept . HAH , best part she was snoring . Super tired eh Raudah ? Awwww . I continued a lil bit of mugging, and then switched on my laptop . Seeing Raudah so happily cuddled up , I also join . But I slept for a bare 15minutes since her phone rang loudly -.-

Bathed, and then out to CWP for bubble tea. Bus-ed to Vista Park and met Shidah & friend . We didn't spend much time because Shidah had to go off , Raudah had to meet her friend and I headed to Admiralty to meet Pot . HAH , fair lah all had to meet own needs. I bought food at the pasar malam because mom said there's no more food at home. Walked to atap and we shared stories.

There's this Indian uncle who I guessed is drunk , came over and talked to us and said something . After that , he shouted from far saying that he wanted to buy drinks , and asked if we wanted any . I said no nevermind thank you. & he said it wasn't poison , just a can drink . I shook my head and smiled politely . and you know what, he said "Ape dah , free drinks don't want . BODOH ! " BABI peh uncle . He came back and gave us Redbull . I don't know how he knows we always drink Redbull ah but yes we accepted the drink but threw it away . Dah was-was pe ... ATAP is no longer safe .

I slept at near 3 in the morning just now. Alarm went off but I couldn't hear anything . Heh , woke up at half past ten and bathed . Supposed to go library for some mugging and researching with Kak Aisyah and Shaqila . But I'm caught up with something right now so maybe few hours later I shall head down to the library and meet them .

Tomorrow will be another long day. Sighs , I really feel like skipping morning lecture and go to the airport to send my aunt and uncle off for their Haj . Next week , ibu and papa will be flying off for their Haj also . Woahhh , when's my turn ? [:

I wanna watch 2012 ! anyone willing to accompany me ?

2009-11-13T07:32:00.003+08:00

Last Tuesday, Jot + Mok and Qot celebrated Pot's 17th birthday. It was a super mini celebration since it was a last minute thing . Jot and Mok bought the cake in the evening and I went to playhouse at night to pass the bottle before meeting Pot .

The couple came from behind Pot, while I kept her busy listening to my babbles . Sang her a birthday song and AS PER LAST YEAR , she cupped her ears again . HANTU ah ni anak, seriously =.=' Cut the cake, and we smeared some cakes on each other's faces .

Heh , while Pot was busy playing with the candles , Jot dengan rileknyee poured the mixture in the bottle on Pot . AHH AMEK KAAAAU ! I put some kunyit , vinegar , chilli powder , soy sauce , lime juice , eggs and some water . It smelled , awful -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST POT ! [:

On Wednesday , Raudah & I went for our 2nd jogging session . Tetaaaap macam last week. I couldn't run muchh , so we did only a few rounds . Bathed and cabbed down to VP . Quarter to eleven , I walked home .

Today was rather boring . I had lectures from 9 in the morning to 4 in the evening , with only two hours of break . After school , when i wanted to take the train, I used the wrong card to actually tap in . Confident , pakai admin card =.=' A whole queue was waiting behind me . Lucky Wei Zheng told me ! Malu malu malu - Train-ed to City Hall together with Wing Chu , Wei Zheng and Amsyar . From CH to Bedok , I was stuck with Amsyar . & Amsyar scolded me !

I was rather hungry upon reaching nenek's house so ape lagik , makan la . Waited for family to reach and went off at 9 . I did a lil bit of bio . Rajen kaaaan , aku tau :D

I need to study during weekends . A lot to catch up . First ICA in two weeks , hmmmms.

goodnight readers !

2009-11-08T13:41:00.002+08:00

I never thought I'd be able to achieve this . Alhamdulillah , I've gotten what I actually wanted . It was a rough time for me during examinations & I thought it's best if I gave up hoping to get the top few percent in school . Abang Bhai told me to "Never push yourself down" . I'll heed his advice , and hopefully I can maintain where I am right now . Congratulations to those who received the award too !

I've got a whole list of projects , assignments and tests :

- HS1088 CBL to be done in PPT Slides =.=

- HS1092 Theory Test in WEEK 6

- HS1095 Theory Test in WEEK 6

- HS1088 ICA

- HS1089 ICA

- HS 1097 ICA

- HS1098 ICA

- HS1089 Essay (1500 words)

Wow , now I've got to sacrifice social life to complete all this . EEEWWW ,

Raudah came to my house yesterday. We studied Bio and Physical Assessment. Lunch and then I continued mugging . Raudah dozed off , probably because she was too tired from yesterday [: OH ! , yesterday when we played the swings , I fell down with a loud thud while trying to HOP off the swings . HAH ! Buttock-ached okaaay .

We changed to * points up * and headed to Crescent Park to jog . Raudah had to slow down because I simply couldn't catch up . PLUS , i kept on stopping for brisk walks . HEEEE , this is what happen when I don't jog for a year plus plus already . Kesiaaan aku . She did an extra round before we continued with sit-ups . Walked home, bathed and went off to VP again .

Shidah joined late at night, and then both Shidah & I went home first . Now, I wanna snooze for an hour before studying .

Good day readers !

2009-11-06T07:29:00.002+08:00

I'm super super SUPER tired this week . I've been coming home late , and I had to rush through all my assignments and projects . Heh , okay my bad . I went out for swings with Raudah and some times Shidah ...

Last Tuesday , I went out with Danish for a nice dinner . Met him after he finished work and we headed to Swensens . Danish bought a beef lasagna which looked ____ . But he said it was nice sooo , suke hati Danish ahh . I got mac & cheese , which I've been craving for so long . Deserts were Sticky Chewy Chocolate and Frozen Chocolate Malt . Yumyummm ! We shared alot of stories , and I'm glad Danish is not the quiet person anymore . Way to goooo !

Walked around CWP , and then we walked back to Admiralty . We talked non stop, and we still haven't finish our stories upon reaching Admiralty . Heh, so much to share , so little time [: A nice night with him . Meet soon okaay -

Next day, out to Vista Park with Raudah , Ariff , Afifah and Wan . Spent time having fun and I almost forgot all the things I needed to do . HEH , I went back at around 9 plus . Dengan rajinnye , I walked back home . PENAT !

I'll update more later okaay . I'm off to school right now , good day !

2009-10-31T23:54:00.005+08:00

Today was GREAT ! & i am so so so soooo looking forward to another trip like this . but HOPEFULLY, more will be able to come and not cancel last minute eh , hahah -

It rained heavily early in the morning and I thought they were gonna cancel the plan. Me, being ME , called up the rest and I was like " Eh how ? Continue ke tak niehh ? " Pfft , super kanchiong . So yeah i thought i was LATE , so i rushed ; got ready , went out and took the bus down to Tampines . All except Kak Aisyah , boyfr and his sis , ate at Mac before making our way to the ferry terminal . The three of them were late for TWO hours . Adooooi , but yeah after much waiting , we ferried to UBIN!

Rented our bicycles and off we went cycling . I swear i hated those steep hills . Heh, to cycle UP THE HILL takes A LOT and i mean A LOT of energy okehh ! I gave up apparently, and pushed my bicycle [: Clever kaaaan ! Oh anyway kan kan kan , I pity Fatin and Haziqah . Both were having a hard time on the two-man bicycle . Kwang kwang kwaaaang ! Ah the best part was going down the slope :D The wind , FOOOH !

We tracked a lil , admiring the wonderful sight of nature while singing happily . Rested , took some fresh air and cycled back out . 7 of them sat down for coconuts , while Din & I drank from our own bottles . aaaaand , that was the end of the cycling trip ! Ferried back to main island and we had lunch . * baru burn fats , daaaah gain balek *

Bus-ed to Woodlands . Met Raudah , bought our korean meals and train-ed back to my house . Ate our dinner and then we made our way to VP at night . We had fun on the swing , even though we got drenched . Home at half past 11 and tadaaaaa ! That was how i spent my day today . Yer , it's been damn long since I had a lot of fun with friends [:

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The past week in school, dread busy . More ICA-s coming in and I'm glad that I've got a wonderful and responsible leader. We're on the move with the first few ICAs and I think we should be done in a week or two . Hopefully , it's all relevant . Lectures have been seriously mundane and I finally got myself to sleep during the three hour lecture . Tak pernah - pernah aku tido time lecture , no matter how boring it can get . HAAAAH , achievement tuuu *winks*

I'm off to sleep ! Will be mugging at Shidah's house tomorrow & also , I can collect back my handphone that I sent for servicing . Yessaaaah , rindu aku dengan hp aku !

Oh &, Din has been irritating me ever since last week . Siap kau Din ; tadi aku tak puas pukol kau . *stareeees*

2009-10-30T22:05:00.001+08:00

I'M GOING TO UBIN TOMORROW FOR A CYCLING TRIP !

[: will update more when i get back tomorrow .

Right now, I'm super duper mooper tired and I wanna SLEEP .

goodnight readers !

2009-10-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it's best to be ALONE , without anyone disturbing you.

I wanna run far far away from problems . I wanna know how it feels like to be a problem-free person . I wanna be happy everyday, every hour, every minute and every second . & have fun without any limitations. I wanna be the luckiest person in the world to feel all the love and care .

Selfish ? I don't think so . The selfish person is the one that took my happiness away . *SNAPS* Yeah, just like that . Cruel , don't you think so ? Random pe aku =.='

Another week of school starts tomorrow and I'm gonna drag myself to school like always. I hate the process of going to school because I won't get to sit in the bus nor train ! That, accompanied by having to walk to school , and taking the stairs to the venue . URGH -

I'm looking forward to Saturday. Like finally, I'm beginning to enjoy my adolescent period . AHHHH , SELOW ! Hopefully, most invited are coming . MAKE ME HAPPY LAH PEOPLE !

goodnight readers!

2009-10-24T17:40:00.003+08:00

Projects coming in , from one module to another and not forgetting the E-tutorials that need to be handed in the following lessons . Busy busy busy , VERY ! No more time for farming , no more time to enjoy , no more time to slack ! I'm a slow learner , so I need to use all the time I can to study . Boring gile per hidup aku =.='

Last Sunday, Raudah and I were invited to Shidah's house for Elly's cukur rambot . It went fine , alhamdulillah . Ate and entertained lil Marsha or apape lah name budak tu . She's super cute, heh . Rushed home and headed to nenek's house . I was busy munching on the chocolate cookies ( kueh belen-belen rayer ) . Ah, then proceeded to Nek Long's house and that's when i got to know about my uncle's condition . Heh , so as a nurse, I shouldn't be avoiding him , but to give him my attention . Chets , macam paham .

Went to Suntec City w Raudah , Shaqila , Wei Zheng and friend . Stopped at TTSH first since Qila wanted to submit the forms. Raudah made some ZIP IT items for friends , including me . Thanks babe [: Oh , this shop : Mineral Make Up .. Hmms .

Today, went out with Shidah & Noni . I got myself a pair of bottoms , and got my sandals changed . But stupid stupid stupid sandals , I realised it still made the air sound when i got home . Sial nye sandal . Waste my ten bucks -.- I don't care . Aku orang Singaporean jugak , so i wanna go change AGAIN . Ape aku kesah , hmph ! We bus-ed to CWP and met Raudah . Bought some personal items and then had our late lunch at Pizza Hut . Zan was working , and he was super ngong ngong . The service there was not that good, perhaps due to the new trainees la ehh .

ENJOY YOUR WEEKENDS PEOPLE !

2009-10-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

School has started ! Yes people , that means I'm back to mugging and going through the normal routine ; Wake up - bathe - school - home - bathe - laptop/assignment - sleep . Pathetic isn't it . Oh well , at least I'll be busy doing something useful rather than ... thinking of unnecessary thoughts. Hoho XD , glad to be back in school .

It has been only SEVEN weeks , and I actually forgot my classmates' names . SHEEESH , & best part was that with full of confidence , I said THANK YOU VICKY to FONG LAN . Heee , sorry babe ! I got you guys mixed up :| No more in the future okeh , promise [:

I wanna do more shopping ! Seems like I do not have enough tops . Hmms ,

2009-10-16T22:07:00.003+08:00

Okay firstly, apologies to my attachment cliques & Shaun for not being able to make it to Sentosa . Anyway , it was raining in the morning so I assume you guys cancelled ? Heh . So anyway I woke up super duper late today and I didn't have time to clean my room . Showered and headed down to WRS and how delightful it was to see all the happy happy faces of my juniors [:

Joined them for first parade and helped out for a while with the Sec 2s MOI Footdrill . A lot of improvement was needed and Ms Siti wasn't happy at all with the standard :| Better work hard people ; NCO Course won't be that easy . But whatever it is , ALL THE BEST ! Make our school proud alright , I'm sure you guys will .

Took the Sec1s for footdrill after break. This one another lot ! Better buck up or I'll screw you guys down like shit . HAHAH , fun time's over people . Be more serious laaaaa , pity your seniors for having to shout at you guys time and again . Unsightly also for other people to see .

Had a short chat with some of my other juniors . People like Rano and friends , Raudhah , Syakira , Amalina and a few others . Apologies if I couldn't remember who you people are. Heh , oh yaaaaaaaaa ! Not forgetting Ms Serene , Ms Lim , Mr George, Mdm Memy and Mr Faraz -

Ms Serene said she couldn't recognize me because i was soo FAIR .

Mdm Memy said I slimmed down alot , hmmms .

Mr Faraz said I have that nurse look . HAHAH .

Mr George said I look sooo different , like very sophisticated . ?????

Cool eh , when people actually thought I've slimmed down . Truth is , I just gained a few more kilos during the holidays . Oh well , maybe it has been long since I visited the school ? Went home with the other instructors and I quickly got ready and met Shidah . Sorry for being late babe , tak sengaje :D

Saw some ex sec school mates . Atikah dipuji lagik la sehhh , best best . My luck lah maybe today :D Ate my usual Bulgogi and went home . Thank you very much to Shidah for accompanying me . Next , we go get some chocolates okay ? :D

Dad's coming home tomorrow evening . Papa will be fetching us after zohor and we'll be going to nenek's house first . ChaiChee for dinner and then I have the whole of Sunday to enjoy before dragging myself back to school again . Gaaah, now how I wished holidays won't be over ]:

OH YAH , i got this off from Sofian's blog . Something he created himself , heh . He's good with words you know .

Four years of St John's

Has passed in a blur

Yet my heart still feels

Like its being stirred

Of the precious memories

With the people I grew with

Who shed tears and sweat

And with whom I chewed with

Although it has passed

And experiences shared, vast

Distance isn't a hurdle

For True friendships last

-Abu Sofian Eunos

- Little children come to me just to tell me how adorable they are .

2009-10-15T17:39:00.003+08:00

I opened up my photobucket, and found ALL this weird weird pictures . Heh, photos back when i was 12years to 14 years of age . Alot of difference , yes . Don't laugh , because who knows your photo could be uglier than mine ? HAHAHA . I miss those secondary school moments . Free of problems , only studies contribute to the headache .

Apologies for the BIGBIG pictures , thumbnails were too small , so i guess this is a better way to view ?

Picture taken after PSLE i think ?

Raya at Andika's house .

Sec TWO , okay shadaap xD

NI CONFIRM SEC 1 ! my big big ugly specs =.='

Uhh, HEHE . CUTE PE MUKE ! :p

Raudah & I ; Sec 1 , rankless people .

The year Mdm Sugarmary larikan diri ke India . hahah . Eh ke Dubai ?

The 7 of us, 2E1 clique.

Hmmmms .

Okay Redzuan , don't kill me :|

2009-10-15T11:00:00.002+08:00

The drawing up there was done by lil cousin, Farhana . Cheeky ah this girl . HEH . She was going through my handphone and i found it inside my folder [:

I LOVE YOU TOO BABE .

Anyway, I've been wanting to close down this blog and change to onsugar or maybe livejournal , but I realised just how much this blog means to me . Too many cherished moments . Sebab tu aku tak tukar-tukar [:

My plan to go Tampines today has been cancelled due to laziness. So yeah , I think I'll stick to rotting at home watching DVDs . But it'd be nice if I could just go to VP and play on the swing :D JOM AH SHIDAAAAAAH !

2009-10-14T14:17:00.002+08:00

I've checked my timetable for 2nd semester , and it doesn't tally with all those i opened. Shit you, give me headache only =.= So now my concern is , do i report to class at NINE or TEN this Monday !? Dear school , don't make me confuse ]:

Went out with Pot last Monday to CWP . Surveyed some bedroom suite and Pot got her leggins. Treated me to bubble tea & LJS . Yumyummm , I got extra extra cheese :D Headed back home and then out again to lepak at atap . Jot came down, and macam biase , we share share about what's going on in our life ah . Rindu banget sama JOT .

Tuesday, I went out to Nenek's house at Bedok . Left early in the morning and waited for Nana to reach . Ordered Pizza Hut + I asked for my Cheesy Shroom Baked Pasta . HAH finally I got what I craved for (: Rested before going home at 5 . Rushed down to meet Pot and we headed to Crescent Park . A lot was shared , hehe . & the smell of EGG . Eh Pot eh , kau tau ape yang aku maksudkan .

I've no plans for today, and I'm feeling damn bored .

Thursday - To Tamp or just drag to school to buy my notes

Friday - Down for training at WRSS

Saturday - Fetch Dad at airport & dinner at Chai Chee Restaurant

Sunday - No plans yet

My last few days of holidays , sheeeeeesh .

2009-10-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

My clinical posting is finally OVER.

I was in the afternoon shift from Monday to Wednesday. I thought it was gonna be dreadful because usually for me, afternoon shift is very mundane. But the presence of my patients made it worthwhile [: Days were spent doing the very basic stuffs and at times i felt that I needed to do something more interesting. Hahah, too ambitious :|

My final two days of attachment were spent working in the morning. Fun, but suddenly it was a bit draggy. Once , i felt so f***ed up because i received different orders at the same time. I couldn't take it and i vent my anger on the clinical charts. Bad experience...

But on a brighter note, I felt really good, satisfied and lucky to have gained exposure and experience in the past three weeks. My patients were happy under my care, some even thanked me and apologized if they did anything wrong and stuffs like that. One family even asked me out for dinner and others were satisfied and did not lodge any complain. I'm happy that they're happy [:

Pot fetched me from work on Thursday, and we headed to Banquet to ta pao some food back to my house. Had our dinner together and went out to atap and slacked. Just the both of us, until my bro dropped by. We did not stay long because I kept on yawning and Pot pitied me because I still had to go to work the next day . Heh, sorry babe.

Pictures taken on the last day of work, and we bought a small thank you gift and card for Kak Shikin. So yeah, i really appreciate the support given by the ward nurses who were willing to teach and guide us throughout the posting. I wanna emphasise, WARD NURSES okay . I'm referring to the Senior Staff Nurses, Staff Nurses and Assistant Nurses. The person not mention, is the person i don't really wanna thank ;) So...

A REALLY BIG THANK YOU FROM ME TO YOU PEOPLE .

2009-10-03T21:36:00.006+08:00

Another week gone, and it has been a hectic one in ward. As per last week,routine was to do our usual TPR , BP and assisting of clients when needed. But this week was definitely better than last week as we had more work to do and at least for me, i was more confident of doing things on my own.

We could interact better with the ward nurses and of course i've learnt a fair bit of new languages like hokkien and chinese. I go in and out of the cubicle chanting the new phrases i just learnt. Abit stupid lah, but that's just how i want to learn maahhh .

One of the nurses said I'll look nice in a blue police uniform. HAHAH, police ehh . Hmmms, yet to consider it as a change of career [: I gained alot of knowledge from the nurses also . Some were kind enough to tell us the rationale of doing this and that etc. I appreciate those few nurses you know .

Accelerated student nurses completed their 7 weeks of clinical placement. It was a pleasure and i enjoyed working with them. They guided us throughout the two weeks and of course, i think we'll be more of a sotong w/o them. So again, THANK YOU !

On Wednesday, I met up w my two ngiong buddies ; Shidah & Raudah . We headed to Marina Square for dinner. Ate at Seoul Garden and i think we'll give a second thought if we wanna go there again . HAHAH, but overall it was fun. Did a mini shopping and the three of us got a top each. I got extra extra things [:

Saturday:

Happy Birthday to Sharifah Raudah ! Went out to the bank in the morning and i finally settled my financial stuffs. We headed back to her hse to grab her stuffs and off to CWP for our Bulgogi . I tried the Sotong Bulgogi and it was quite nice too. Searched for a new bag and i got one for myself. Watched Phobia2 and the movie was average i guess. It ended w laughter and i think both enjoyed the show. Ran to the toilet to release the urge :P

Headed to Swensens for dinner. Ordered pizza, prawn dips, fries, and ice cream for each of us [: Dah macam orang kaye gituk . So makan makan makan , and headed to Better Vision. Raudah collected her new specs while i made myself a new one. Home, and neighbour dropped by. I had fun entertaining the toddlers. Pandaaaai Atikah jage anak orang :D

I wonder what's up for tomorrow [:

2009-09-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

Raya was average. I couldn't sleep the whole night thinking about some problems and i ended up sleeping at 6 in the morning. Helped nenek to prepare the ingredients at around 3 in the morning before going back to sleep. Woke up at near 9 and with the cranky face, I had to iron my baju raya . Due to sleepiness , I ironed a whole on my left sleeve. THANKS EH , and i merungut to myself . Mom helped me to stitch it and then ironed for me [:

Rushed to Nenek's house and she cooked nasi tomato as per previous years. Mom was like hurrying us and we had no choice because mom's side were coming over to our house. Went to Nek Long's house and then back home. All reached and we had quite a laugh . Cik Dada brought along Justin , and all eyes were on him =.=' He fancies me you know you know ! hahaha , & i remembered one incident whereby i had to bring him to the toilet to loo and then my two lil girl cousins sebok-sebok wanna see him peepee . SHEESH !

I got super tired, that by evening, I slept even though mom's cousins were still outside. I can't help it , I was already goyang so I thought a short nap should do it [:

Next day, went to Nek Ngah & Nek Andak's house. Short visit to Nek Jarah's house and back home.

Subsequent days were spent going out for attachment a.k.a work ! First day was average. Orientation , followed by a lil bit of work in the cubicle which was mostly parameters and feeding . Afternoon was spent in NUHS and then back to Woodlands . Banquet with Raudah and we saw Andika . Ade dier kate ni uniform Guardian ! pfft , gila . Raudah and I went to Shidah's house for raya . Hahah , and and i finally met baby Elly . She's adorable , really .

Next few days of work , i went alone . Being independent susah jugak . I kept on thinking that i'll get lost. Work in the wardcubicle was getting tougher. Not to mention the busy-ness and the workload that was given to me. Furthermore, I was working alone , unlike others who had partners and alot alot of ENs to help ]:

But i shall not complain much ; I chose this career and i'm gonna work / cope well . All i need is to get use to the long hours of no sitting down and just waaaaalk . I swear my legs are super cramp and my feet are aching . Left leg is starting to give me problems due to previous injury. I love my work [:

&&& , I didn't hit my target for results . Haiyer -

2009-09-20T01:21:00.004+08:00

Taking this opportunity to wish all Muslims out there ,

a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Mohon maaf, ampun dipinta .

I know I've done a lot of sins and bad bad things , but that's just us humans .

Sorry banyak-banyak, and enjoy yourself during Raya !

2009-09-18T17:01:00.002+08:00

i miss doing drills w the girls . I miss those CCA days .

The least i expected you to do is to be a man, and thank her for the help. Not just walk away like that and not even a word of appreciation. Man, what life are you leading? Maybe, you're just one jackass who'll NEVER EVER appreciate those who have done you good. Morron , I pity your parents for having a child like you. Who knows, deep inside they actually regret giving birth to you.

Yes, I'm mean .

But not as mean as him .

Like you once told me :

Ade pergi, ade balek .

& my room is in a total mess again ! Gotta clean it up by tomorrow else mom's gonna nag nag nag. HAAAAH ! and I still don't know what to wear on first day of raya . Red , black or green ? Heeee .

Today's the last day of Terawih . Will be doing my final one and then can jump up and down already [:

2009-09-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

Today is boring.
SUPER BORING.

Need i say more?

2009-09-16T15:14:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, i went out to break fast w those loved ones up there *points up*

I met Kobes and Raudah and we went to Woodlands Centre . Raudah got her shoe first since they don't have stock for my size ]: Down to the basement and collected my jeans and dress. Finally, after a week of delay I dragged myself to that place and paid for the alteration service. Lastly , got my shoe which cost $1.90 LESS than Raudah's . * Laugh laugh laugh*

Bus-ed to CWP and we walked around searching for Kobes's Twilight book set . Fussy ahh , not to mention fickle minded . HAHAH , so Raudah and I went w the flow until he purchased what he wanted . Jalan-jalan and we surveyed some handphones , and the price too. Raudah maseh dengan N97 , while aku and Kobes still deciding on what to buy .

Bought food at KFC , and then walked to RP and met up w the other three. Malek chose the place to break fast , and i swear it was damn hot ! Lagik , the place was full of the flyfly thing . HEEEE [: Liyana came w her boyfr , and then we all had a good laugh . EH NO , not laugh about her boyfr , we were all sharing stories about whatever that happened back during those secondary school days , and Liyana sure had alot of history . HAHAH . I felt sorry for Malek and Kobes who got badly tortured by that kecik .

Three went off , and left w the initial three . Walked around cold storage for i don't know why , and then waited for Shidah . Slacked for awhile , and then bus-ed home . DONE!

I feel much better going out , having fun w friends . Yer , FRIENDS , those people who brightens up my day and night . Those people who'd be there for me whenever i need them . Thank you .

2009-09-15T14:31:00.002+08:00

Okay that lil brat up there, happens to be ME.
See how curlyworly my hair was . HEEEE , compared to now [:
Big difference kaaaaaaaan! I know :D

2009-09-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

Took me long enough to realise all this. HEEEEE [:

Well, I figured out that it’s time to seal the past, move on & NEVER look back. Some people just don’t know how to appreciate others, even after all that has been done for them. Yes, SOME people; not one, but more. I guess they’ll only realise it after they’ve lost more than what they have right now. Well at least there are people who realise, unlike one or two who just cannot be bothered. I call this people orang tak kenang budi.

I watched HumTum yesterday w cousins. A very nice story and I’ll give it manymany thumbs up. If given the time, I want to watch it again. You know you know it’s more than just a love story; I learnt something about how you live life. Okay, I don’t know how to put it to words here but, yeahh it’s more than just a love story between two people. If only my life was a fantasy, I’ll be on cloud 9 already, flying-flying with a big smile on my face :D

Farhana & family, aunt and uncle came over for break-fast yesterday. Murtabaks, donuts, kueh-s, and some dish. I know I know, it’s not the last day of puasa. HAHAH! I ate a lot, and I mean A LOT which was too much. Despite being full, I still gobbled up some junks because I felt super uneasy. Which later on I found out that ... okay diam.

I dozed off at 1 in the morning, and woke up at 5 for predawn meal. A cup of coffee was it. Bathed and Papa sent us to the airport. Fam went off strolling at Terminal 2 while I sat down and took care of the luggage. Plugged in my earpiece and I started dreaming. Dad went in at half past 8 and we bid our goodbyes. Bus-ed home and slept. I’m supposed to be out w FORCES playing badminton right now but it’s raining so, I shall give it some time before making my final decision :D

I need to pick up my uniform and jeans that I sent for alteration last week. I don’t wanna go alone, because I don’t wanna start dreamingdreaming again.

Haiyahh, some people are having fun out there & forget about others. Okaykay what am I blabbering-

2009-09-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

It doesn't have to be this way,

Please , be safe & go home .

All it takes is courage to face the problems ,

Which i know you have .

I've got a room to clean , sheesh . & I've been having trouble sleeping at night . Turn in at midnight and still awake at 2 -3 in the morning . It's really annoying me okay, especially when attachment is nearing and i need to REset my biological clock =.='

I feel like going to Geylang ; I want my dengdeng badly ! Bro's going off to Geylang tomorrow and friday , but i doubt he's gonna get me that dengdeng . Hiakdush , cekek darahh .I wanna meet some people badly , because i miss them very much . But it'll never happen w schedules like this. Maklumlah , sekarang kononnye poly everyone dah busy [:

I wanna go back to my sec sch life . You know : wearing uniform , putting on that red tie in the morning , doing duties while people are doing their silent reading , back in class trying hard to concentrate , cursing teachers every now and then , getting along w classmates . OMG, those times .

Oh , recess ! How can i forget , every day makan chicken rice and milo . Kooosmangat badan aku - Nearing Os , every day balek , changed clothes and out to RP or Jot's house for some mugging session . Buat biseng & laughing like crazy ... Those times ahhh , those times ...

At times, i miss certain moments in my life back then . Why ?

2009-09-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

At times, the blogger is okay but MOST of the time it really irritates me seeing the layout.

Both parents won't be home until after eight. Nenek went out to Nek Andak's house and will break fast there. That means, me and adek-s must go out makan. Mama forgets to give me $$ , how ah how ?

I've been rotting at home & getting the hang of it. I'm penniless to go out and even if I go out, I don't know where to go. I've been trying to avoid crowded places because I just feel soo RIMAS . But but, i REALLY wanna go to the beach ,

Bro just ended his phase 1 of Nlevel . Chiong ah gondol eh . Continue your last minute mugging sessions and then after the paper complain to me [: Jahat tak aku ?

Raya in less than two weeks. I still don't feel the raya mood. I don't think it will come this year, heh. I didn't buy any baju because i find it a waste buying just to wear it on the first day. I'll be away for attachment starting the 3rd day of raya , so pakai baju tahun lalu takde masalah pe. Anyway, i got one pair not worn yet. RED tau (: That means mama and I will wear RED while lagik due monyet wear WHITE.

Dad will be away to Jakarta this weekend, all the way until mid Oct.WOW-

I'm starting to miss NR0912. & takku forget , my 4e2 FOR-CES '08 and other secondary school mates. PLUS PLUS, cousins from both sides.

I tried cleaning my room, but it still looks like kadang babi. I wanna paint my room, I wanna change my bedroom set. Kasi aku duet ahh!

Eh, buke nak makan ape ?

2009-09-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

Apologies for the quality of the picture. Maklumlah, tengoklah gambar siape kan? Heheh , kidding babe :D

I've been out lepak-ing w that bitch up there. Lepak w her only pon jadi lah ehh, since at times i was not getting peace at home. That day we went to Atap at around 10 and back home at around midnight. Woah, ni lah anak dare zaman skarang- Shared abit about whatever that happened, and berangan tak habes-habes.

Yesterday, we were supposed to be out by after Zohor ... tapi apekan daya , si Qot tido taknak bangon. So yeah, a lil bit of delay and out at around 2plus. I got my two jeans and dress altered. Nyonya tu gile ! Aku baru datang nak kasi , dier geleng-geleng kepale and said tak boleh habes nari . Sumpah aku tak cakap aku nak collect on that day jugak . wooo .

Walked di Sheng Shiong to kill time while waiting for Pot's seluar to siap. Shopped siket-siket and then we berangan again on what to bake or cook in time to come. Berangan teros lah kite berdue... Mane badan tk chomel -

I cannot take it already. Saket. Kbye.

2009-09-05T18:18:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, i just feel like it's best if things are kept to yourself .
Unknown to the rest , maybe it'll work.

Keep up the good work ; smile for all that matters.

2009-09-04T16:51:00.005+08:00

It has been VERY long since i last blogged w a picture. Stupid blogger is always giving some technical problems. But still, i find it more user-friendly than others.

Friends are having their attachment and most are getting used to the place. Sad to say, some of the nurses there aren't willing to teach us , the student nurses because they see us as some KAYPO kids loitering around the ward. Maaaan, some kind of nurses ayye. They used to be students too, seeking help from the senior ones- Kepale hotak dorang ahh , chis .

Din was attached to CGH Ward 36 . Awww, ward aku tu... & i heard alot has changed. At least the nurses and attendants there are still friendly [: Shidah treated a patient w MRSA on the first day w/o knowing it. Cute pe kawan aku , naseb kau Shidah ...

After hearing all the different stories about the hospital and wards, i have doubts about going for my attachment. I used to always looking forward to this practical but , maybe after everything that happened, it's not gonna be the same no more. Aiyahh , i guess i'll just have to live w it.

& since the day of my last paper, i've been laptop-ing for almost 24hours. I sort of had a movie marathon , starting from Prison Break (Season 1 to 4 ) , followed by G.I Joe , G-Force and currently District 9. Will be moving on to HP & HBP at night . Don't ask me where i got all the movies , heheh . Tanye adek aku yang suke buat keje-keje underground [:

Prison break got me addicted to this guy. How he tried his best to save his girlfr and the ones he loved. He's a superman [:

I wanna go out tomorrow, just to ease my mind. & hopefully, tmrw aku dah boleh puase ah eh.. I don't wanna hutang banyak-banyak. Tekak aku craving for ice-cream nieh , siape nak belikan ?

For now, i want to run away and hide from all problems. I don't wanna get involve w anything . Haiyah , paham ? Aku tak .

To baby scandal, stay strong. You know i'll always be there for you, like how you were there for me. You've heard this time and again but just hear it out : Things happen for a reason. God will never test His creations beyond their limits. I know it's tough , i've been there... TRUST needs time to develop , it doesn't come just like that [:

ily

2009-09-03T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hola people! Yeah, i've been abandoning my blog for quite some time due to some reasons. Am blogging to tell you guys that i'll be closing this blog very soon because, i don't have any reasons for that [:

Basically, i'm just feeling damn bored right now. I stayed inside my room for 5 days & watched the full season of Prison Break, going out only when i need to. It feels good actually to just be in the room w/o having to think of any problems that i'll face when i step out of my room. Dreadful life-

I've got a list of chores that's still undone. Tables not clean, books not arranged properly, mirros not wiped, bedsheets not changed, clothes not ironed. AAAAHHHH !

Results on the 23rd of Sept , and im waiting patiently for it. I know i've screwed up most of the modules :| Help-

2009-08-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

gastric got me, again ]:
my stomach feels really painful right now.

Don't let circumstances control you, sighs.
Alhamdulillah , I'm done with my semestral exams.
Now, for the results which would be on 2nd day of attachment.
Pray hard i'll at least get a D for all .

I'm in no mood to blog actually, just that tangan gatal wants to typetype aje . Alot have been happening during my absence, and i don't think i need to explain it all here. Currently, it's the fasting month so i'd like to wish those fasting , a Salam Ramadhan to all . Yer, aku se-low.

Apologies to my group mates for not being able to tag along today. I've got a bad feeling actually. & it turns out, yes the normal bad news and and , my tummy macam sial. Redman alert, damn ah kann.

I went to Bedok Reservoir after the paper just now, w Ah-Pot. I can't post the pictures due to the retarded template of blogger. I got all down there, and i think Earth feels me. It rained heavily and we got drenched. Poor Ah-Pot's sandal got snapped. Home, and i rested.

Eh, sumpah perot aku tengah saket siak! Menyesal aku minum susu. & my gastric medications are nowhere to be found.

2009-08-19T12:55:00.001+08:00

i've lost.
everything.

yes, i was a fool.
bastard.